sory so long... i forgot to post part of it earlier
i have made a recent discovery: my choice in music movies books are all unhealthy.
but bc i can't quit cold turkey (WHO the hell came up w/ that... ?) i decided to go through my favorite song's lyrics and honestly go through what i think about them.
Always You and I
98 Degrees
It's so hard to say How a love could end this way
The one that used to care for you Just turns and walks away
I guess it's possible to actually turn and walk away cold, w/o feeling, w/o regret. But I think most of the time, it's almost just as hard to be the one to walk away as to be the one who is being walked away from. You rarely terminate relationships w/o a clue as to what their reaction might be, and while it may hurt, isn't it better for them to be honest and leave than to stay and lie? It's not easy to leave people like that, even if there is a legit reason; oftentimes, the best answer we can come up with is "it's just not the same". And sometimes all we have to rely on is a gut feeling, an intuition. Leaving is hard. Even if they put on a brave face and act mean and cold, it could just be an act. An act so they don't fall apart completely. How do you explain to someone what the change was exactly? How do you convince them that just because you don't want to date them doesn't mean you care less, but that you care differently? And why is it that even if we understand this, it still hurts when other people say the same to us?
And it's so hard to find
To leave the pain behind
When all the things you're lookin' for
Your heart can't seem to find
and when you don't find it, you don't believe it, or think it's too good to be true. But when you don't find it, you wonder what's wrong with you. The ironies of it all.
Chorus
I'll be the air that you breathe
I'll give the strength that you need
I'll be the light in your eyes
When hope becomes hard to see
I'll be your shining star
To guide you wherever you are
And I promise that I'll be by your side
Always you and I
This thing with promising, and forever, seem really pointless to me. I hate when people promise forever, because there is no way they can. For as long as it is right is much more practical. I don't believe in marrying to get get divorced, but I will admit that sometimes, divorcing is the best course of action. But let's say one really can't live with the other for some really serious reason, and the other person insists, "But you promised you'd stay forever." I mean seriously. Forever? There's no such thing. And sorry for being morbid, but you know how sometimes when somebody dies, the other person says "But you promised." It's not like they went out of their way to kill themselves to break that promise. Things happen, things change. Forever is unrealistic. If somebody tries to promise forever to me, I'm thinking "Bullshit. They just don't know what else to say. False promises = lying. Or at least it comes pretty damn close.
Know you're not alone
Without a love to call your own
Cos I'll always be right there for you
To help you carry on
A heart that's always true
Girl, I'm giving mine to you
And everything you'll ever need
I promise I will do
Dammit. Here we go again. You can't fix everything for somebody else. You can fix some, but not all. And the meaningless promises. ::sigh::
Chorus
Bridge
Girl, in all your sleepless hours
I will be right there for you
With a hand to hold
A heart to see you through
Cos each and every night
I will make it right
When life feels so wrong
'Cause in my arms is where you belong
While it's nice and happy and cute and warm, phsyical attractiveness or connections can lie. A lot. But it's something nice to believe in.
Chorus
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"I believe I'm in the 99th percentile of all possible lives."
~ would probably prefer not to be named
i'm not sure whether i should envy him/her for realizing how good we have it, or if i should be angry that this is enough. does that make sense? prolly not.
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Dancing with Einstein by Kate Wenner
Maps can substitue for places, as travel can substitute for life. ~p2
Dr. Angela Iris: Sometimes we need to slow down enough to arrive at our destination. ~p6
Marea: In my limited experience, gay men are a lot more fun than straight men and usually nicer than straight women. ~p12
Dr. Angela Iris (Marea's new shrink): Trust is a marvelous accomplishment that often takes quite a bit of time. Why don't you wait and allow me to earn your trust. ~p33
Colin Ross: Girls go through a stage of development when they fall in love with their fathers and imagine they'd be better wives to them than their mothers have been. ~p37 wait... WHAT????
Marea: Therapy can be the yeast for life, but sometimes people mistake therapy for life itself. ~p39
Einstein (supposedly): Any man who thinks of himself as a genius would have to be a very stupid man. ~p43
Einstein: What the world likes to call a genius is only a person who isn't afraid to hear what his imagination is telling him.
Marea: But it's a risk isn't it? To see beauty, to be willing to see it, to risk trusting to the meaning in it and then losing it all over again. ~p180
but bc i can't quit cold turkey (WHO the hell came up w/ that... ?) i decided to go through my favorite song's lyrics and honestly go through what i think about them.
Always You and I
98 Degrees
It's so hard to say How a love could end this way
The one that used to care for you Just turns and walks away
I guess it's possible to actually turn and walk away cold, w/o feeling, w/o regret. But I think most of the time, it's almost just as hard to be the one to walk away as to be the one who is being walked away from. You rarely terminate relationships w/o a clue as to what their reaction might be, and while it may hurt, isn't it better for them to be honest and leave than to stay and lie? It's not easy to leave people like that, even if there is a legit reason; oftentimes, the best answer we can come up with is "it's just not the same". And sometimes all we have to rely on is a gut feeling, an intuition. Leaving is hard. Even if they put on a brave face and act mean and cold, it could just be an act. An act so they don't fall apart completely. How do you explain to someone what the change was exactly? How do you convince them that just because you don't want to date them doesn't mean you care less, but that you care differently? And why is it that even if we understand this, it still hurts when other people say the same to us?
And it's so hard to find
To leave the pain behind
When all the things you're lookin' for
Your heart can't seem to find
and when you don't find it, you don't believe it, or think it's too good to be true. But when you don't find it, you wonder what's wrong with you. The ironies of it all.
Chorus
I'll be the air that you breathe
I'll give the strength that you need
I'll be the light in your eyes
When hope becomes hard to see
I'll be your shining star
To guide you wherever you are
And I promise that I'll be by your side
Always you and I
This thing with promising, and forever, seem really pointless to me. I hate when people promise forever, because there is no way they can. For as long as it is right is much more practical. I don't believe in marrying to get get divorced, but I will admit that sometimes, divorcing is the best course of action. But let's say one really can't live with the other for some really serious reason, and the other person insists, "But you promised you'd stay forever." I mean seriously. Forever? There's no such thing. And sorry for being morbid, but you know how sometimes when somebody dies, the other person says "But you promised." It's not like they went out of their way to kill themselves to break that promise. Things happen, things change. Forever is unrealistic. If somebody tries to promise forever to me, I'm thinking "Bullshit. They just don't know what else to say. False promises = lying. Or at least it comes pretty damn close.
Know you're not alone
Without a love to call your own
Cos I'll always be right there for you
To help you carry on
A heart that's always true
Girl, I'm giving mine to you
And everything you'll ever need
I promise I will do
Dammit. Here we go again. You can't fix everything for somebody else. You can fix some, but not all. And the meaningless promises. ::sigh::
Chorus
Bridge
Girl, in all your sleepless hours
I will be right there for you
With a hand to hold
A heart to see you through
Cos each and every night
I will make it right
When life feels so wrong
'Cause in my arms is where you belong
While it's nice and happy and cute and warm, phsyical attractiveness or connections can lie. A lot. But it's something nice to believe in.
Chorus
***************************************************
"I believe I'm in the 99th percentile of all possible lives."
~ would probably prefer not to be named
i'm not sure whether i should envy him/her for realizing how good we have it, or if i should be angry that this is enough. does that make sense? prolly not.
**************************************************
Dancing with Einstein by Kate Wenner
Maps can substitue for places, as travel can substitute for life. ~p2
Dr. Angela Iris: Sometimes we need to slow down enough to arrive at our destination. ~p6
Marea: In my limited experience, gay men are a lot more fun than straight men and usually nicer than straight women. ~p12
Dr. Angela Iris (Marea's new shrink): Trust is a marvelous accomplishment that often takes quite a bit of time. Why don't you wait and allow me to earn your trust. ~p33
Colin Ross: Girls go through a stage of development when they fall in love with their fathers and imagine they'd be better wives to them than their mothers have been. ~p37 wait... WHAT????
Marea: Therapy can be the yeast for life, but sometimes people mistake therapy for life itself. ~p39
Einstein (supposedly): Any man who thinks of himself as a genius would have to be a very stupid man. ~p43
Einstein: What the world likes to call a genius is only a person who isn't afraid to hear what his imagination is telling him.
Marea: But it's a risk isn't it? To see beauty, to be willing to see it, to risk trusting to the meaning in it and then losing it all over again. ~p180