In A Rut
I have been bad at updating again. I am feeling so blocked up, as I have always written to rid myself of any problems. And I haven't. It is something that has been happening quite a bit. Instead of stressing about it though, I decided just to muddle on through and ramble a load of shit. Not that anyone will read it. It just makes me feel better. And that is what blogging is about, really.
I have been feeling really down lately. Like, I have become so anxious that everyone around me is lying. Like, I have no trust in anyone around me. It is so unhealthy, but I can't seem to help it. I don't know what is wrong, because nothing has caused this distrust. But, I don't think it is them, the more I think about it. I think I am just paranoid. Like, I do my best to be a good person, but there are always these doubts in my mind that it's not good enough. The worst thing is, that I don't know how to make them go away. It stresses me out sometimes, and because I haven't written about it, I feel a thousand times worse.
It's funny. How you don't actually need to say much, for you to feel like a weight has been lifted. Like just expressing how I feel, does make things seem that bit better.
I have been feeling really down lately. Like, I have become so anxious that everyone around me is lying. Like, I have no trust in anyone around me. It is so unhealthy, but I can't seem to help it. I don't know what is wrong, because nothing has caused this distrust. But, I don't think it is them, the more I think about it. I think I am just paranoid. Like, I do my best to be a good person, but there are always these doubts in my mind that it's not good enough. The worst thing is, that I don't know how to make them go away. It stresses me out sometimes, and because I haven't written about it, I feel a thousand times worse.
It's funny. How you don't actually need to say much, for you to feel like a weight has been lifted. Like just expressing how I feel, does make things seem that bit better.