moss on a rolling stone.
how early is too early for me to have someone babysit ellie? i want to have someone babysit for a night but she just gets so cranked out at night... i would feel bad making someone deal with cranky ellie. its not fun. i dont know. i definitely need someone on july 12... because i am seeing copeland with jala. i have tickets and everything and i refuse to miss it because she's cranky. she'll be practically 3 months then so hopefully her routine will be even more set.
i love her desperately. sometimes i feel guilty because i just don't want to deal with the crying anymore (especially cause i can't help her and its hard sometimes)... anyways i know it won't be this way forever. it just makes me really tired. i never thought staying home and taking care of a baby would be so tiring. but it is.
other things:
-paid my fine at cal state, still no degree. bastards.
-need to figure out when i can register, because obviously thats all screwed up too.
-thinking of having jala watch ellie sometime next week so i can go to yard house happy hour just for an hour or so. anyone down? YES.
-i love my friends, that they still call me and text me even though i know i suck at calling/texting back. things are so different now.
-hoping ellie will be a good girl while i go to the worship night at church on sunday. hoping!
i love her desperately. sometimes i feel guilty because i just don't want to deal with the crying anymore (especially cause i can't help her and its hard sometimes)... anyways i know it won't be this way forever. it just makes me really tired. i never thought staying home and taking care of a baby would be so tiring. but it is.
other things:
-paid my fine at cal state, still no degree. bastards.
-need to figure out when i can register, because obviously thats all screwed up too.
-thinking of having jala watch ellie sometime next week so i can go to yard house happy hour just for an hour or so. anyone down? YES.
-i love my friends, that they still call me and text me even though i know i suck at calling/texting back. things are so different now.
-hoping ellie will be a good girl while i go to the worship night at church on sunday. hoping!