round and round and about.
ive kinda stopped writing extensively in my journals, both cyber and physical, idk why. perhaps having to keep up with my own life really isnt much of a priority when i feel like ive already lost control. shrugs. i tend to write with the intention to keep track of my thoughts and my daily life, knowing exactly what's going on in my life in my own head. but for the past year, there's just been a bit too much physical and brain activity for me to want to keep track and yknow when things get too much to hold on you just let go of the reigns totally? yea, that. ive let go of the reigns but the horse im riding isnt slowing down or stopping anytime soon. i still feed my horse carrots cause i love animals and would never do anything to hurt them.. but. where am i headed to? what is my purpose? what time is it? where am i? i have so many questions and like my horse, time isnt slowing down and will never do so until my horse dies of old age and collapses like my physical body would over time. or perhaps, without reigns, itd run into an unprecedented cliff ahead and crash 1000feet down into the river below with sharp jagged rocks. shrugs.
where can i go to find direction?