i. want. to. feel. small.
"why? whats wrong with being tall?"
why? because i dont like feeling like a fucking giant. my shoulder width is too broad. my legs are too thick. nobody, well the boys dont, wants me to join cheer for fear id fucking crush them. being tall alone is not the problem. it's the fact that my height is accompanied with a not-so-small width. because when performing, id always be placed at the back no matter how good i may be because im tall. because stretching with Petra cheer girls; Belicia, Su Wen and Abby today made me feel like a giant. i feel so fucking huge all the time i just want to shrivel up and die. boys dont want to stand near me. i cant stand next to a guy and feel okay. standing next to small and pretty Hendric during dance sometimes make me feel so. darn. big.
i need a shrinking potion. Alice please?