Clearly Ambiguous
Things have been progressing quite well. When I was a younger, I used to think that the bringing of a new year would also bring change. I don't believe that anymore, change doesn't base itself on due dates and deadlines.
Lately, I've been occupying my time rather productively. I've been reading a lot actually. I've finished one book and started ( Read more... )
I do 100% agree that changes aren't suppose to happen by a certain date or deadline. What confuses me and it's definitely my fault...is that I changed but not for the better. The worst part is that I didn't even notice it. It scares me that I changed into a completely different person, someone who I never wanted to be. How does that happen? I think I was my worst nightmare because deep down as I look back..I think wow I was a bitch. What I know now is something that would entirely change my past. I'm more aware of little changes with myself...even physically. For instance, when I slammed my finger in the door..remember in August? It still hasn't fully healed and it's been five months. But each day I would look down on it and slowly it has changed and is healing. Do we control changes or is it incontrol of us? I have a question...I like your haircut..still shaggy and yet not. But why...cut some of your hair and let the rest grow out? Why not let all of it grow out or get a full cut? I'm just curious because I really do like your hair...and ears!
Also, don't ever lose your romantic side...one of my favorite memories of you was when you walked down from the Hill, drunk, across campus to Dana's dorm, and you gave me something. It is honestly on my top 10 most happy present. Being romantic is a gift it isn't something everyone can be. Think about it you see those people who try to hard to do something special and it just turns out as a disaster? Patting yourself on the back when whatever it is you planned turned out just as you imagined! Pondering what it is next that is going to bring that look on that special someone's face.
That's fucking awesome about your new song...I for sure get to hear it when you finish it! I really liked your last song too..it was really good! I'm glad you are writing more on your livejournal..I'm gonna to admit..I was a little disappointed with that huge break. I'm psyched about Copper on Friday!!!!!!!!!!
peace out
Moriah
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