living like this...
to think that all of you have shown me new ways new ideas and all that i lost and were to become. and now all of you falter and i am in this new direction new place and time. i can tell you all i know but it take open ears and the will to absolute didication of change. not like i know but i've learned a few things here and there.
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i did love you. i did feel things and lust i had never felt. dont doubt. i wanted it but all my old barriers came into play. and then there was her. why she came along i'll never know. what was i to learn. i did love you. i do. dont think i didnt. it took me a minute to see you as not just a brother but a possible love. it took me to long. and when i was ready to take a chance you had moved on. but never forget you deserve so much more. and that is why. i always think people deserve more than me. but i would appreciate everything you do. you are all love. just let it out.
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i did love you. i did feel things and lust i had never felt. dont doubt. i wanted it but all my old barriers came into play. and then there was her. why she came along i'll never know. what was i to learn. i did love you. i do. dont think i didnt. it took me a minute to see you as not just a brother but a possible love. it took me to long. and when i was ready to take a chance you had moved on. but never forget you deserve so much more. and that is why. i always think people deserve more than me. but i would appreciate everything you do. you are all love. just let it out.
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