Born Bad
There is part of me that is truly evil. I don't think this, naturally. However, I think that my mother does. When I am having difficulties at home, I tend to tell my mother my issues. This is a problem that many girls have. We trust our mothers and they tend to make us feel better about our lives and our choices. This is not true in the case of my mother. For instance, I told her that I was no longer going to support Mark. That I was going to live my life in my apartment, pay for my own bills, pay for my own food, etc. Now, if this means that Mark is going to starve because he can't buy food for himself, then so be it. Personally, I don't think that this is a wrong choice. When we moved down here, he made a promise to me that we were going to split things evenly. He has not kept his end of the bargain. I have been paying for everything. Yes, the job market is really shitty, I completely understand and I am aware of that. However, I wasn't supposed to be working and going to school at the same time. That isn't how everything was supposed to go. School was supposed to be my main concern and not bringing in the money so we could eat and survive. Not at all. But, I have had to get a job because he can't find a better paying one. Now, I have told him to go look for a second job because I could no longer afford to feed him and have him live off of me. He hasn't found one yet. He says that he has been looking, however, I don't see it. So, I am no longer going to play this game. So, I told my mother this. She told me that I was being cruel and that I could not do that to him. That he does try. That I need to realize that. I, on the other hand, have no sympathy whatsoever for this. I can save a lot of money by only paying for myself. So, that is what I am going to do.
I guess this makes me a monster.