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[suave_thomas]

As much as I hate the shite I went through at the end of my second life, I have to say some of the knowledge came in handy. Eating, even though I don't feel hunger, still makes the pull less. Like the energy which would go nowhere, goes to fighting it. So, once again, I am eating like a machine. It's going okay

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[in_spectre_mors]

I love you too, Thomas. I'm glad you've found a way to make the pain less. That brings me some comfort, though I wish you didn't have to suffer it at all.

Poor Stephie and Scarlett... I feel for you all so. You all have my love.

I never did sleep with a woman. I always knew I wasn't interested. I didn't need to try it to confirm that. I just knew. Sacrifice tried to seduce me quite a few times. I'm sure it was just for the ego trip of saying she turned the gay man. But I certainly got the last laugh there...

I don't think it's time for Samson to find out about Marie and James yet, either. As you said, time enough for that after he sees the Beyond. Then we'll see how things go. I'm not willing to take the slightest risk with our kids. Not for anything.

[suave_thomas]

I'm not suffering. I'm in denial. Tot-al denial. It's way healthier. :|

And we love you.

You certainly did. And I always thought that was the case, I just never asked. I guess I didn't need to! I just knew, like you did. I like that you knew who you were. Even if you were afraid to show it. That takes real strength.

Neither am I. Good. I was hoping you wouldn't think I was being paranoid. I just don't want him to know. I remember what you said about him talking about wanting grandkids even when you were really young and I can't help but wonder for what.

[in_spectre_mors]

Oh, my love... I wish there were more I could do to help...

Thank you, my darling. I didn't always feel strong, but you're right. I had a pretty good idea of who I was. It was just a matter of actually being that person.

Unfortunately, I never did feel I had to wonder. I don't think you're being paranoid. We're just being safe.

[suave_thomas]

It's alright, Honey. I'm starting to realise I'm acting like a fruitcake. Sometimes all it takes is time. And, as I seem to be stuck, time I have. I don't want to stop acting like a fruitcake yet, but I can see it for what it is.

You're that person now. And that person is the man I love. Thank everything for you.

Yeah. God, yeah. Safe is right. He's working towards being better, but nothing changes overnight.