Filtered to Spectre and Mary

Aug 27, 2008 22:43

Sometime in the last 2 years, Peter started believing in God again. He got his faith back and I didn't know.

THAT FREAKS ME OUT! Peter never does something I don't know about! Believe me. I know when he had sex because he has that look. I know when he's hungry or thirsty or in pain but not telling anyone. I know when he's happy, I know when he's sad and hiding it. I know when he's had something to drink. I know when he's lying, not that he does that a whole hell of a lot.

I did not know this. And I should have. How the HELL did I miss this. I MADE the man lose his faith. Me. I reveled in his faith with him before I went and died and made him all doubty. And today he was talking about God and...I didn't know what to say.

And all of a sudden I realise that I miss it. Everything's turned all around. Peter has his faith back, and I'm left out in the cold wondering what the hell to believe. Chiara's dead and I don't have a thing to draw comfort from beyond the people I love.

Honestly though...the people I love tend to be enough.

Mara (The Boss) and I are going to a carnival tomorrow. She said she thinks Amaris might be there, but I think she really wants popcorn and a lot of candy floss. And so help me...Whomever...she's going to get it and more.

what happened to me?!, are you there god it's me thomas, doubting thomas haha irony

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