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[suave_thomas]

Hi, Babe. I know you are reading this. But just take a moment to realise what it means. I mean...look at that. How happy he is. And when I think back on how Flynn was when we first met him...how unhappy he was and stand-offish in a completely understandable way...this change in incredible and it makes me so happy

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[in_spectre_mors]

Oh, Thomas. Thank you. Thank you so much. I can't tell you what it means to know that you think that of me.

I love having Mara around. I love her, my little sister. We've both slipped so easily into this relationship. I guess going through an incredibly traumatic experience together will do that. But there's no trauma now. Now, we're just taking care of each other. And I can't say it's not daunting. I never expected to have a child at this point in my life. Even if she is my little sister, she's like a daughter, too. And I'm grateful. So grateful. But I am scared too, like I imagine any parent would be. Especially if they just... adopted a nine-year old out of the blue. Having your confidence in me makes that fear very manageable, though. In fact, it makes it fade away almost completely, leaving me happily able to enjoy all that is before me all the time. So as much as Mara or Flynn may have to thank me for, I have so much to thank you for. I wouldn't be the person I am, the person they need me to be, if it weren't for you. So for me, the gift of loving kindness is something that is very much passed on. In time, I feel confident that Flynn will give it to someone else, too.

So thank you for believing in me, Thomas. That belief makes all things possible.

[suave_thomas]

I believe it will all my heart.

I know you love having her around. It's like your lit up and I love to see that. I think the trauma showed you both that you could rely on and trust one another. And now that it's gone (thank goodness) you still have that knowledge. It's a treat to be able to watch you two. It really is.

I know it's daunting. Not from experience, it's just...of course it is. I would be scared too. But I see what Peter has with his kids and how incredible that bond is. And now you have that too. It's beautiful. And you say the most beautiful things. I think the gift of loving kindness is the best one to pass on!

You're welcome, my love. I always will.

[in_spectre_mors]

What we went through was certainly a trial by fire. I wish Mara had never had to go through such things, but at the same time, I wouldn't trade that bond for anything. It's a paradox, but I can live with that.

Looking to Peter and his relationship with his children is something that inspires me every day. That's what I want with Mara. I think we're doing well so far. Really, I know it, because I know my family wouldn't say the wonderful things you do about our relationship if they weren't meant. So thank you too, for helping me to see that I am doing well, that I am handling this. I'm just so happy to keep giving, and to keep giving to Mara.

I know to the very depths of my soul that your faith and belief will always be with me. And your love. The same goes from me to you.

[suave_thomas]

Paradox is a sexy word. Not..so much the meaning. Uhm...anyway yes. I wish neither of you had had to suffer through it.

She asked for popcorn on her journal. That's what made me want to write this to you. I read the happiness of Flynn and then I saw that Mara asked for something...that's a big step and she's able to do it already. You are doing very well.

I know that to the depths of my soul too, Spectre. Really...how could I not?

[in_spectre_mors]

I think there are many words made sexy simply by virtue of our saying them.

Yes! I was so pleased about that. She knows it's okay to say she needs or wants something, and she knows she'll be looked after when she does. I wish that didn't have to be such a huge deal, but still, I'm so happy she's already in that place. We can give her the life she deserves. The things that were done to her before will be nothing more than a bad memory.

I shall never give you cause to wonder, darling Thomas.

[suave_thomas]

Like every word you ever say ever?

It is a huge deal though, and it's something that deserves to be recognised. Making the things that happened to her before nothing more than a distant bad memory is one of my fondest wishes.

Mmm. You're fantastic. Hey! Tell me one of your fantasies so I can make it come true!

[in_spectre_mors]

Amongst others! I was thinking more along the lines of every word you say... but at least we were on the same track!

It's one of my very fondest wishes, too. We'll make it happen.

Well, I always fancied being one of Robin Hood's very merry men...

[suave_thomas]

But you say things Scottishly!! Which just...gets me every time.

Yes we will. We're well on our way.

Hah! You're brilliant. And you clearly just want to see me in tights.

[in_spectre_mors]

Oh aye.

And Thomas, really... what could possibly be wrong with seeing you in tights, I ask?

[suave_thomas]

Mmm yes.

Absolutely nothing! You shall have me in tights!! As long as Robin Hood isn't going to hurt his Merry man.

[in_spectre_mors]

I think I'll be alright. Everything seems to be progressing nicely, and there's been no bad so far!

[suave_thomas]

I just have to make sure.

Right, I'm off to find some tights! And a quiver! Hhehehe quiver!

[in_spectre_mors]

I know. Thank you. See you soon, my love!

[suave_thomas]

And I can rub that paupaw cream on your back afterwards if you want me to.

Okay I'm coming now!