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Title: Iliada
Author:su_ede
Length: About 3871 words
Pairing: Matsumoto Jun x OC
Rating: G
Genre: AU - Action - Police
Disclaimer: I don't own Arashi...or maybe I do, who knows?
Summary: Sonoda Miyako works as a secret agent at Japans National Security Agency. After a hard mission his boss want her to work in a new case. The man? Matsumoto Jun, a guy that for the police is like a ghost. They need her to capture him.
A/N: Thank you SOOOO much for reading. Comments are my vitamin. OMG, Are we getting closer to the end?
June 4th to June 8th
Miyako stared at Jun, showing no emotions. The surprise and fear she felt inside weren’t show on her face.
Jun knew it. God knows since when. “Are you going to say something?”
“I don’t have a good reason. I got in to your house because they commended me to get as many proofs as I could get about you and your drug dealing business. So in order to do that I became Goriki Miyako, part of your cleaning staff” Jun remained in silence, wishing he hadn’t just heard that. Wishing he hadn’t heard the cold tone of her words “I got in with a plan. I put microphones in your library, office and room, I hacked your computer, I inspected every single corner of this office looking for papers, bills, anything I could use, and when I found them, I took pictures of them…I had a good plan”
“A plan? Everything was a plan. Then what was true?” Miyako’s face and voice started to show what she was feeling. Part of it. “The only truth were my first name, and the fact that I love you. Jun, this mission looked so easy, that’s why I got in to it, and it was easy, I even got lucky, cause you allowed me to get close to you sooner than I thought…but that same luck that got me results faster than I though, it screwed all of it. I started to hide information, investigate on the side, I prioritized my feelings and needs over the objectives of this mission…”
“You think I'm going to believe that? How can I even trust you now?”
“You have a sixth sense Jun, you are good reading people, you always know who can get inside your circle, if you could trust me, it must be because of something” Now Jun felt more relieved somehow. Miyako had lost that cold tone and now her voice was showing her desperation. "I was stupid, I let my guard down, that’s why I allowed you to get inside"
"No! You didn't let your guard down, I passed over it, I behave the way you needed me to behave, I gave you understand, I gave you a warm embrace, I accompany you...and you allowed me do it" Miyako’s words were hurting him, more than calming him down. They reminded him what an idiot he was "Cut the crap! You followed what this papers told you to do! You acted all out" Jun pulled open one of the desk drawers, taking out a bunch of papers "I found this under your bed, I made a copy so I could take my time and read it" Miyako cursed under her breath. Jun had found out the worst way possible "Everything you needed to know about me is here, and they even wrote you a script. Such a great actress Sonoda" The way Jun called her last name made her feel a dark sadness inside. Jun refused to look at her, and any explanation she could give sounded empty. She reminded quiet for a while. It helped her to think a bit more and it helped Jun to calm down “I stopped acting the day we had sex at the kitchen. I didn't realize it before, but I think that’s the day I stopped working in the mission and I started working under my own needs. I kept spying on you and trying to get information from you, but only for the sake of my own curiosity, my own selfish need of know more...I just wasn’t fully conscious about why I did it" Jun got up from his seat, and stared outside, avoiding Miyako’s pleading eyes. "Miyako…so you fell in love with your target?"
"I did. I know. I hate it. Now my perfect record is ruined"
"What do you mean?" Miyako was pleased to see a different emotion besides hate in Jun’s expression, now he was curious. She walked to his side, not to close out of respect. "I have a perfect record, never failed in a mission. You are going to be the first." Jun giggled, a short and low giggle that gave Miyako some hope "I’m glad then, you deserve it" She reached his sleeve, a shy action that made Jun’s determination waver "Anyway
I won’t be the first one. You're not failing this mission" It took her a couple of seconds to realize what was Jun saying. “No Jun, no! I already have a plan, I can save you from this. This next Friday morning police will be knocking on your door, they have an order to take everything you have and you, we still have time"
"Why are you saving me? Your goal was to put me on jail, why are you saving me?!"
"Because now! .... Because now I changed sides, now I’m with you"
"What are you saying?! It can't be that easy" Jun hit the window, channeling every emotion in his body to the end of his fist, trying to eradicate the doubt. "It is! Jun, it is, I’m with you now, I have your back, I can save you from this, we have time"
"Don’t need to, I’m giving myself up" Miyako’s hand move from his sleeve to his hand and turned him around so she could look at his face "Jun, what are you saying?" Jun looked at her with a deep frown but not mad, he wasn’t mad, Miyako only saw redemption, Jun had lose his will "Is about time"
"Jun...." He lifted his hands, slowly, carefully, they move from from her shoulders to the sides of her face. Jun’s face serious, still frowning, but the shaking of his hands told her something "I should pay for what I have done."
"Jun please"
"I don’t know if I can forgive you"
"Is not your forgiveness what I want, is your understanding" Her hands grabbed his face and Jun didn't fight the contact. He stared at her with sad eyes, and found the same eyes looking back at him. What other expression could he have when the woman he loved recognize his biggest fear.
But at the same time, she appeared at the right time.
Miyako kept caressing his face, doing her best to erase that pain from the corner of his eyes “Was there any real about this? Are you really the person I fell in love with? Or I was just part of the roll? Were you only a character?”
“No Jun, I wasn’t, you asked me once if I would lie to you...I said yes, but I will never lie about my love to you, a part of this” She said pressing her hand against her chest “Could be a lie, but you were the only truth. You and what I feel for you" Miyako was right, Jun thought, he did had a sixth sense, and that sixth sense was telling him that he could believe all that. That the one in front of him was all Miyako. Naked, unarmed and honest.
But it was too soon.
Jun grabbed her hand, moving them away from his face and took a step back “Miyako…I need a moment”
“Sure, I understand, I’ll go back to my place and…”
“You don’t think I’m going to let you leave this house right?, not until I decided what I’m going to do” Suddenly Jun’s eyes were black again. And Miyako felt the need to get on guard. “Jun, are you going to keep me here? Like a hostage”
“Don’t talk nonsense, I have to think, so for now stay here, before I surrender to the police I need to take some precautions, you are staying here, is the least you can do” Jun turned around, leaving the office, locking himself inside his library.
Miyako leaved the office too, she locked the doors of the house, give water to Taro and Sabotarou, ate half of an ice cream bucket and then went to her room.
June 9th to June 10th
Miyako woke up after a refreshing night of sleep.
Her body was used to sleep under situations of stress, in that way, she would be rested and with the energy to deal with whatever task the next day could bring.
Jun didn’t had the same tactical preparation. He couldn’t close an eye the entire night. And to make it worst. He only wanted to go to Miyako’s room, get in to her bed and fall sleep next to her. But his pride didn’t allow him to do so.
At 9 o’clock she had his breakfast ready and waiting in the kitchen. Jun stood in the entrance, already dress up in his house kimono, with his hair wet and a more relaxed disposition “Good morning Miyako”
“Good morning, how are you?”
“Horrible, I couldn’t sleep at all, you?” Miyako thought about give an acquiescent lie, but changed her mind. From now on she would stop hiding things from him “I sleep like a rock. It’s a surviving tactic, sleep helps you heal, regain force and more…so, I’m good sleeping under situations of high stress” Jun grinned at her, resting against the door frame, in silence “I hate you” He said, still greening, with a playful stare “At least you cook me a good breakfast”
“Of course I did, I know you can’t sleep when you have trouble, so I made you a good breakfast, you know, so you can work the rest of the day” Jun’s grin changed in to a straight line, the playfulness in his eyes gone. He walked inside the kitchen, around the table, and stopped in front of Miyako “You know me well”
“I do”
“Who made that profile, you?”
“No, our psychiatrist…it was good right?”
“Very…I hate it” Miyako smiled, and Jun mirrored that smile “Miyako…over all, I felt so stupid. You were such a mystery to me, and then I found out that you knew so much about me. You know how hard was for me tell you the truth about my job? And you already knew it. You knew everything”
“Jun, I knew nothing…I only got to know who you were once I was here” Jun didn’t look at her, he didn’t answered either. He sat at the table and Miyako served him tea, sitting next to him. She watched him eat, and wait for is next words. Jun stayed quiet until he finished his breakfast. Miyako cleaned the table and washed the dishes, but Jun didn’t moved from his seat. Once she was ready, he looked at her and gave her a signal to seat back. She obeyed. They were face to face, their knees touching. Jun cleaned his throat and asked her if she could answer him some questions. She accepted not thinking it twice “What would happen to you if I run away?”
“Nothing, I’m the best they have, if you ran away it could pass as an honest mistake, it would be other people work to find you” Jun laughed incredulous “They send the best they have to look for me?”
“Yeah, you were giving them a lot of trouble”
“Good, that was the idea” Miyako asked him a bit unsure “Are you going to follow my plan?”
“No, I keep the words I said yesterday, you do what you have to do, and I will be next Friday waiting for them…but as I told you, before that I have to take some precautions, and From now on I will like you to keep everything I say, in secret”
“Of course” Jun got up, and asked her to follow him. Miyako walked besides him, both got inside Jun’s office. “I guess there is no need to make everything disappear right?”
“No, they have all the proofs they need. Although, that murder you commit 10 years ago. They don’t know about it, if you have a proof about it, destroy it” Jun took a couple of keys from inside his kimono and opened a drawer, with a safe inside, he used the second key to open it “Why they don't know about it ?”
“I never told them” Jun stayed in silence. That would safe him from life imprisonment “Thanks... I have to make sure Nino will be safe”
“How safe?” Jun took two sheets of paper from inside the safe and gave them to Miyako “The only thing that relates him to me is this will that I wrote a while ago when I got attacked twice in a month. I freaked out, and the only family left I had is Nino, so I wanted to be sure that he will get all I have, here it is. I want you to hide it for me” Miyako grabbed the papers in her hands not reading them “I’ll hide it with my belongings, what else you need me to hide?” Jun kept roaming inside the safe, and took off a silver rectangular object with a black cable attached “Take this, you don’t need to hide it, show it as proof, it’s a hard drive, inside it you will find all the information related to the people who sell me the drug, and who bought it, If I’m going down, I’m taking everyone with me” Miyako liked the dark smile forming in his lips. She grabbed the hard drive and put it next to the will. Jun kept looking inside his safe, and Miyako remembered something. The diaries. Those were hardcore proof, and she had the pictures, but the only ones who knew about them were Aiba and her. She didn’t report them in to the investigation. Jun had to hide those too before the police gets inside his house. Telling Jun that she knew about the existence of those diaries and that she read them too, could be dynamite, but it really didn’t matter now “Jun, the diaries inside your wardrobe…I should took them with me too” She could have predict the expression on Jun’s face. It was a step back in this regained confidence he was showing. “You know about them…you read them too of course”
“I did” Jun’s rage was so loud that Miyako could hear it. She knew that it was a horrible attack to his privacy, but she had to do her work, although that was a really bad excuse. Jun passed by her and walked outside the office. A minute later he came back with the cardboard box with the ten diaries "Did you read all of them?"
"No, I read 2001, 2002 and 2004" Jun closed his eyes and massaged his temples kipping his anger under control "So you know about the airport issue? Do they know?"
"No, only the guy that is helping me out in this mission, but he has orders of not share anything with anyone without my permission"
"I can't believe it, all my secrets, all the chapters of my life that I kept in secret with so much apprehension, were known with so little effort by you…fuck! I am an idiot" Miyako walked around the desk and pulled Jun in to her embrace, it didn't matter to her if he didn't want it, she kept her arms around his body with decision. She apologized, repeated the words over and over, until they sank in Jun’s head. He didn't move. He didn’t say a thing. But he wasn’t mad with Miyako, he felt hurt but not angry towards her. He was mad, furious with himself and his own weakness. "Miyako, are your parents even dead?, Or as it said in that profile, you made it out so you could get on with me"
"They are dead, my dad passed away when I was 15, due to a cancer and my mom followed him, she couldn’t stand the pain, my grandma took care of me, but when I was 20 she got dementia and now she is living in a retirement house. There’s when I join the police.
“Yeah, and someone told me you were kicked out after you hit some sexual abuser"
"What? How do you know that? When I joined the agency they made that incident disappear"
"Yeah but your ex co-workers still talk, what happened?" That was still a sensitive issue for Miyako, it still made her sad, and disappointed. She tightened the grip around Jun “The guy had abused 15 girls by the time I found him. And each time they were getting younger and younger. I found him in an abandoned house in my way to the police station. He was about to start when I jumped on his back and reduced him. He didn't fight back, instead he started laughing and the more he laughed, the angrier I got. I broke his nose, his left orbital bone and he lost five teeth. I just wanted to shut him up, to erase that smile, but also... I wanted to cause him pain, I wanted to torture him" Miyako kept quiet for a while, with her head resting in Jun’s shoulder, and Jun waited until she was ready to keep talking "Of course a cop that can’t control herself is not a good cop, so they fired me. And no one offered me a hand… I got depressed. I was mad with everyone, with me, with that man, and especially with the police, they didn't support me when I needed it. Some months after that, my boss came to my house to offer me a Job, and here I am"
"Who is this boss?"
"Sakurai Sho, he is an idealist, but with a cold mind, he told me that with him, with his team, I was allowed to hit the crap out of the people that deserved it, we are over the law. He trained me for half a year and then I had my first mission"
"And what was the mission about?"
"North Korea, there was a hostage situation, two journalist, one mediator, and three civilians"
"You saved them?"
"Of course, but one of the guards hurt me, there's when I got the scar in my back, I spend one month as a hostage, then I ran away and I spend three weeks hiding in the forest until people from my team found me"
“And the scar on your thigh?
"This one is new, it was a bullet, I was in Russia, and the guy that I had to capture shot me, it was my mistake though, I should have make sure he was clean" Jun moved her away from him and pointer at the floor “Sit there and tell me all about it, I want to hear about all your life and your missions, so we can be even" Miyako followed his order and sat at his feet, resting her arms in Jun’s legs. "Where should I start?”
“My diary’s start when I was 18, so let’s begging there" Miyako took a long breath and started relating the highlights of her youth.
It was already 2pm when Jun woke up. He was still wearing his kimono and he was lying at the end of the bed. Next to him there was somebody’s legs, Miyako’s legs. He immediately smiled once he was completely conscious about her presence. She remained asleep, hugging a pillow. When Jun saw her face, he had flashbacks about the dream he was having some minutes ago. Miyako was some kind of female James Bond running away from bad guys. He was watching it rather than living it, but in times she would talk to him throwing a smart joke, ask him if he was alright, or promising that he will be.
Jun listened to Miyako stories patiently, intently. She answered all the questions he had and with the truth. He still had some questions, but by 4am they were still talking and tired. They fall asleep on top of the bed, and Jun couldn’t remember where they had left the conversation. He was sure Miyako had already narrate all her missions, he remembered each one of them. But he needed more. The hours of sleep brought more questions.
Miyako woke up an hour later. She felt Jun’s hand resting on her ankle, his thumb moving absently. She slid down the bed, reaching Jun’s side. His hand slide up to her hip and stayed there, Miyako took it as a good signal “Good morning” She said, Jun whispered a good morning, and nothing else. She took a most brave approach and slid her left arm under Jun’s head, and he welcomed the gesture. Miyako moved her head closer to his, until her nose sank in his hair, and Jun snuggled in to her body. Her body shivered due to the relieve that Jun’s reaction caused her. “Miyako, Why did your boss offered this small work? Compared with all the other things you told me about last night, this is nothing. It’s strange”
“My last mission was the longest, and hardest. I went through a lot. I lost 50 pounds, I was physically abused and mentally too. The training I told you about included those kind of things, but it is just training, the real thing was hard, but it didn’t kill me. But my boss felt somehow bad about it, he didn’t want to send me in a beginning”
“So he gave you this mission to keep you in form, but out of danger”
“I guess you could say that, he is so overprotective sometimes, that’s why we fight quite a lot” Jun moved his head away from Miyako and stared at her with an expression that amused her a lot “How old is this Sakurai?”
“Mmm…33 I think, Why?” She knew why “33 uh? I thought he would be an old bureaucratic prick, not a 33 old man that overprotects you” Miyako bit the inside of her cheek, keeping the laughs away “Are you actually jealous Matsumoto?” Jun suddenly sat up and rise above Miyako, both of his hands resting on each side of her head “It is so hard to believe in all this, I want to, but I don’t know how, How can I be sure that you aren’t just following your plan?, trying to get me in to jail… How do I know that you aren’t getting me to do what you want?”
“Jun, If I wanted to make you do what I want, we would be on a plane right now, is not my wish for you to get in to jail”
“Then why you haven’t try to convince me to run away with you?” Miyako reached his neck, and posed her hand there, feeling his pulse “Because it doesn’t matter what I say or do, you’ll go anyway. You feel guilty for what you have done, and it doesn’t matter how many times I said it, I will never convinced you that you are a good man, and you don’t deserve this. You need to go there, to free yourself, so then I can free you” Jun dropped on top of Miyako, leaving her breathless. He hid his head in Miyako’s neck and she hold him tight in between her arms.
She could only let him cry. Caressing his trembling back.
Author:su_ede
Length: About 3871 words
Pairing: Matsumoto Jun x OC
Rating: G
Genre: AU - Action - Police
Disclaimer: I don't own Arashi...or maybe I do, who knows?
Summary: Sonoda Miyako works as a secret agent at Japans National Security Agency. After a hard mission his boss want her to work in a new case. The man? Matsumoto Jun, a guy that for the police is like a ghost. They need her to capture him.
A/N: Thank you SOOOO much for reading. Comments are my vitamin. OMG, Are we getting closer to the end?
June 4th to June 8th
Miyako stared at Jun, showing no emotions. The surprise and fear she felt inside weren’t show on her face.
Jun knew it. God knows since when. “Are you going to say something?”
“I don’t have a good reason. I got in to your house because they commended me to get as many proofs as I could get about you and your drug dealing business. So in order to do that I became Goriki Miyako, part of your cleaning staff” Jun remained in silence, wishing he hadn’t just heard that. Wishing he hadn’t heard the cold tone of her words “I got in with a plan. I put microphones in your library, office and room, I hacked your computer, I inspected every single corner of this office looking for papers, bills, anything I could use, and when I found them, I took pictures of them…I had a good plan”
“A plan? Everything was a plan. Then what was true?” Miyako’s face and voice started to show what she was feeling. Part of it. “The only truth were my first name, and the fact that I love you. Jun, this mission looked so easy, that’s why I got in to it, and it was easy, I even got lucky, cause you allowed me to get close to you sooner than I thought…but that same luck that got me results faster than I though, it screwed all of it. I started to hide information, investigate on the side, I prioritized my feelings and needs over the objectives of this mission…”
“You think I'm going to believe that? How can I even trust you now?”
“You have a sixth sense Jun, you are good reading people, you always know who can get inside your circle, if you could trust me, it must be because of something” Now Jun felt more relieved somehow. Miyako had lost that cold tone and now her voice was showing her desperation. "I was stupid, I let my guard down, that’s why I allowed you to get inside"
"No! You didn't let your guard down, I passed over it, I behave the way you needed me to behave, I gave you understand, I gave you a warm embrace, I accompany you...and you allowed me do it" Miyako’s words were hurting him, more than calming him down. They reminded him what an idiot he was "Cut the crap! You followed what this papers told you to do! You acted all out" Jun pulled open one of the desk drawers, taking out a bunch of papers "I found this under your bed, I made a copy so I could take my time and read it" Miyako cursed under her breath. Jun had found out the worst way possible "Everything you needed to know about me is here, and they even wrote you a script. Such a great actress Sonoda" The way Jun called her last name made her feel a dark sadness inside. Jun refused to look at her, and any explanation she could give sounded empty. She reminded quiet for a while. It helped her to think a bit more and it helped Jun to calm down “I stopped acting the day we had sex at the kitchen. I didn't realize it before, but I think that’s the day I stopped working in the mission and I started working under my own needs. I kept spying on you and trying to get information from you, but only for the sake of my own curiosity, my own selfish need of know more...I just wasn’t fully conscious about why I did it" Jun got up from his seat, and stared outside, avoiding Miyako’s pleading eyes. "Miyako…so you fell in love with your target?"
"I did. I know. I hate it. Now my perfect record is ruined"
"What do you mean?" Miyako was pleased to see a different emotion besides hate in Jun’s expression, now he was curious. She walked to his side, not to close out of respect. "I have a perfect record, never failed in a mission. You are going to be the first." Jun giggled, a short and low giggle that gave Miyako some hope "I’m glad then, you deserve it" She reached his sleeve, a shy action that made Jun’s determination waver "Anyway
I won’t be the first one. You're not failing this mission" It took her a couple of seconds to realize what was Jun saying. “No Jun, no! I already have a plan, I can save you from this. This next Friday morning police will be knocking on your door, they have an order to take everything you have and you, we still have time"
"Why are you saving me? Your goal was to put me on jail, why are you saving me?!"
"Because now! .... Because now I changed sides, now I’m with you"
"What are you saying?! It can't be that easy" Jun hit the window, channeling every emotion in his body to the end of his fist, trying to eradicate the doubt. "It is! Jun, it is, I’m with you now, I have your back, I can save you from this, we have time"
"Don’t need to, I’m giving myself up" Miyako’s hand move from his sleeve to his hand and turned him around so she could look at his face "Jun, what are you saying?" Jun looked at her with a deep frown but not mad, he wasn’t mad, Miyako only saw redemption, Jun had lose his will "Is about time"
"Jun...." He lifted his hands, slowly, carefully, they move from from her shoulders to the sides of her face. Jun’s face serious, still frowning, but the shaking of his hands told her something "I should pay for what I have done."
"Jun please"
"I don’t know if I can forgive you"
"Is not your forgiveness what I want, is your understanding" Her hands grabbed his face and Jun didn't fight the contact. He stared at her with sad eyes, and found the same eyes looking back at him. What other expression could he have when the woman he loved recognize his biggest fear.
But at the same time, she appeared at the right time.
Miyako kept caressing his face, doing her best to erase that pain from the corner of his eyes “Was there any real about this? Are you really the person I fell in love with? Or I was just part of the roll? Were you only a character?”
“No Jun, I wasn’t, you asked me once if I would lie to you...I said yes, but I will never lie about my love to you, a part of this” She said pressing her hand against her chest “Could be a lie, but you were the only truth. You and what I feel for you" Miyako was right, Jun thought, he did had a sixth sense, and that sixth sense was telling him that he could believe all that. That the one in front of him was all Miyako. Naked, unarmed and honest.
But it was too soon.
Jun grabbed her hand, moving them away from his face and took a step back “Miyako…I need a moment”
“Sure, I understand, I’ll go back to my place and…”
“You don’t think I’m going to let you leave this house right?, not until I decided what I’m going to do” Suddenly Jun’s eyes were black again. And Miyako felt the need to get on guard. “Jun, are you going to keep me here? Like a hostage”
“Don’t talk nonsense, I have to think, so for now stay here, before I surrender to the police I need to take some precautions, you are staying here, is the least you can do” Jun turned around, leaving the office, locking himself inside his library.
Miyako leaved the office too, she locked the doors of the house, give water to Taro and Sabotarou, ate half of an ice cream bucket and then went to her room.
June 9th to June 10th
Miyako woke up after a refreshing night of sleep.
Her body was used to sleep under situations of stress, in that way, she would be rested and with the energy to deal with whatever task the next day could bring.
Jun didn’t had the same tactical preparation. He couldn’t close an eye the entire night. And to make it worst. He only wanted to go to Miyako’s room, get in to her bed and fall sleep next to her. But his pride didn’t allow him to do so.
At 9 o’clock she had his breakfast ready and waiting in the kitchen. Jun stood in the entrance, already dress up in his house kimono, with his hair wet and a more relaxed disposition “Good morning Miyako”
“Good morning, how are you?”
“Horrible, I couldn’t sleep at all, you?” Miyako thought about give an acquiescent lie, but changed her mind. From now on she would stop hiding things from him “I sleep like a rock. It’s a surviving tactic, sleep helps you heal, regain force and more…so, I’m good sleeping under situations of high stress” Jun grinned at her, resting against the door frame, in silence “I hate you” He said, still greening, with a playful stare “At least you cook me a good breakfast”
“Of course I did, I know you can’t sleep when you have trouble, so I made you a good breakfast, you know, so you can work the rest of the day” Jun’s grin changed in to a straight line, the playfulness in his eyes gone. He walked inside the kitchen, around the table, and stopped in front of Miyako “You know me well”
“I do”
“Who made that profile, you?”
“No, our psychiatrist…it was good right?”
“Very…I hate it” Miyako smiled, and Jun mirrored that smile “Miyako…over all, I felt so stupid. You were such a mystery to me, and then I found out that you knew so much about me. You know how hard was for me tell you the truth about my job? And you already knew it. You knew everything”
“Jun, I knew nothing…I only got to know who you were once I was here” Jun didn’t look at her, he didn’t answered either. He sat at the table and Miyako served him tea, sitting next to him. She watched him eat, and wait for is next words. Jun stayed quiet until he finished his breakfast. Miyako cleaned the table and washed the dishes, but Jun didn’t moved from his seat. Once she was ready, he looked at her and gave her a signal to seat back. She obeyed. They were face to face, their knees touching. Jun cleaned his throat and asked her if she could answer him some questions. She accepted not thinking it twice “What would happen to you if I run away?”
“Nothing, I’m the best they have, if you ran away it could pass as an honest mistake, it would be other people work to find you” Jun laughed incredulous “They send the best they have to look for me?”
“Yeah, you were giving them a lot of trouble”
“Good, that was the idea” Miyako asked him a bit unsure “Are you going to follow my plan?”
“No, I keep the words I said yesterday, you do what you have to do, and I will be next Friday waiting for them…but as I told you, before that I have to take some precautions, and From now on I will like you to keep everything I say, in secret”
“Of course” Jun got up, and asked her to follow him. Miyako walked besides him, both got inside Jun’s office. “I guess there is no need to make everything disappear right?”
“No, they have all the proofs they need. Although, that murder you commit 10 years ago. They don’t know about it, if you have a proof about it, destroy it” Jun took a couple of keys from inside his kimono and opened a drawer, with a safe inside, he used the second key to open it “Why they don't know about it ?”
“I never told them” Jun stayed in silence. That would safe him from life imprisonment “Thanks... I have to make sure Nino will be safe”
“How safe?” Jun took two sheets of paper from inside the safe and gave them to Miyako “The only thing that relates him to me is this will that I wrote a while ago when I got attacked twice in a month. I freaked out, and the only family left I had is Nino, so I wanted to be sure that he will get all I have, here it is. I want you to hide it for me” Miyako grabbed the papers in her hands not reading them “I’ll hide it with my belongings, what else you need me to hide?” Jun kept roaming inside the safe, and took off a silver rectangular object with a black cable attached “Take this, you don’t need to hide it, show it as proof, it’s a hard drive, inside it you will find all the information related to the people who sell me the drug, and who bought it, If I’m going down, I’m taking everyone with me” Miyako liked the dark smile forming in his lips. She grabbed the hard drive and put it next to the will. Jun kept looking inside his safe, and Miyako remembered something. The diaries. Those were hardcore proof, and she had the pictures, but the only ones who knew about them were Aiba and her. She didn’t report them in to the investigation. Jun had to hide those too before the police gets inside his house. Telling Jun that she knew about the existence of those diaries and that she read them too, could be dynamite, but it really didn’t matter now “Jun, the diaries inside your wardrobe…I should took them with me too” She could have predict the expression on Jun’s face. It was a step back in this regained confidence he was showing. “You know about them…you read them too of course”
“I did” Jun’s rage was so loud that Miyako could hear it. She knew that it was a horrible attack to his privacy, but she had to do her work, although that was a really bad excuse. Jun passed by her and walked outside the office. A minute later he came back with the cardboard box with the ten diaries "Did you read all of them?"
"No, I read 2001, 2002 and 2004" Jun closed his eyes and massaged his temples kipping his anger under control "So you know about the airport issue? Do they know?"
"No, only the guy that is helping me out in this mission, but he has orders of not share anything with anyone without my permission"
"I can't believe it, all my secrets, all the chapters of my life that I kept in secret with so much apprehension, were known with so little effort by you…fuck! I am an idiot" Miyako walked around the desk and pulled Jun in to her embrace, it didn't matter to her if he didn't want it, she kept her arms around his body with decision. She apologized, repeated the words over and over, until they sank in Jun’s head. He didn't move. He didn’t say a thing. But he wasn’t mad with Miyako, he felt hurt but not angry towards her. He was mad, furious with himself and his own weakness. "Miyako, are your parents even dead?, Or as it said in that profile, you made it out so you could get on with me"
"They are dead, my dad passed away when I was 15, due to a cancer and my mom followed him, she couldn’t stand the pain, my grandma took care of me, but when I was 20 she got dementia and now she is living in a retirement house. There’s when I join the police.
“Yeah, and someone told me you were kicked out after you hit some sexual abuser"
"What? How do you know that? When I joined the agency they made that incident disappear"
"Yeah but your ex co-workers still talk, what happened?" That was still a sensitive issue for Miyako, it still made her sad, and disappointed. She tightened the grip around Jun “The guy had abused 15 girls by the time I found him. And each time they were getting younger and younger. I found him in an abandoned house in my way to the police station. He was about to start when I jumped on his back and reduced him. He didn't fight back, instead he started laughing and the more he laughed, the angrier I got. I broke his nose, his left orbital bone and he lost five teeth. I just wanted to shut him up, to erase that smile, but also... I wanted to cause him pain, I wanted to torture him" Miyako kept quiet for a while, with her head resting in Jun’s shoulder, and Jun waited until she was ready to keep talking "Of course a cop that can’t control herself is not a good cop, so they fired me. And no one offered me a hand… I got depressed. I was mad with everyone, with me, with that man, and especially with the police, they didn't support me when I needed it. Some months after that, my boss came to my house to offer me a Job, and here I am"
"Who is this boss?"
"Sakurai Sho, he is an idealist, but with a cold mind, he told me that with him, with his team, I was allowed to hit the crap out of the people that deserved it, we are over the law. He trained me for half a year and then I had my first mission"
"And what was the mission about?"
"North Korea, there was a hostage situation, two journalist, one mediator, and three civilians"
"You saved them?"
"Of course, but one of the guards hurt me, there's when I got the scar in my back, I spend one month as a hostage, then I ran away and I spend three weeks hiding in the forest until people from my team found me"
“And the scar on your thigh?
"This one is new, it was a bullet, I was in Russia, and the guy that I had to capture shot me, it was my mistake though, I should have make sure he was clean" Jun moved her away from him and pointer at the floor “Sit there and tell me all about it, I want to hear about all your life and your missions, so we can be even" Miyako followed his order and sat at his feet, resting her arms in Jun’s legs. "Where should I start?”
“My diary’s start when I was 18, so let’s begging there" Miyako took a long breath and started relating the highlights of her youth.
It was already 2pm when Jun woke up. He was still wearing his kimono and he was lying at the end of the bed. Next to him there was somebody’s legs, Miyako’s legs. He immediately smiled once he was completely conscious about her presence. She remained asleep, hugging a pillow. When Jun saw her face, he had flashbacks about the dream he was having some minutes ago. Miyako was some kind of female James Bond running away from bad guys. He was watching it rather than living it, but in times she would talk to him throwing a smart joke, ask him if he was alright, or promising that he will be.
Jun listened to Miyako stories patiently, intently. She answered all the questions he had and with the truth. He still had some questions, but by 4am they were still talking and tired. They fall asleep on top of the bed, and Jun couldn’t remember where they had left the conversation. He was sure Miyako had already narrate all her missions, he remembered each one of them. But he needed more. The hours of sleep brought more questions.
Miyako woke up an hour later. She felt Jun’s hand resting on her ankle, his thumb moving absently. She slid down the bed, reaching Jun’s side. His hand slide up to her hip and stayed there, Miyako took it as a good signal “Good morning” She said, Jun whispered a good morning, and nothing else. She took a most brave approach and slid her left arm under Jun’s head, and he welcomed the gesture. Miyako moved her head closer to his, until her nose sank in his hair, and Jun snuggled in to her body. Her body shivered due to the relieve that Jun’s reaction caused her. “Miyako, Why did your boss offered this small work? Compared with all the other things you told me about last night, this is nothing. It’s strange”
“My last mission was the longest, and hardest. I went through a lot. I lost 50 pounds, I was physically abused and mentally too. The training I told you about included those kind of things, but it is just training, the real thing was hard, but it didn’t kill me. But my boss felt somehow bad about it, he didn’t want to send me in a beginning”
“So he gave you this mission to keep you in form, but out of danger”
“I guess you could say that, he is so overprotective sometimes, that’s why we fight quite a lot” Jun moved his head away from Miyako and stared at her with an expression that amused her a lot “How old is this Sakurai?”
“Mmm…33 I think, Why?” She knew why “33 uh? I thought he would be an old bureaucratic prick, not a 33 old man that overprotects you” Miyako bit the inside of her cheek, keeping the laughs away “Are you actually jealous Matsumoto?” Jun suddenly sat up and rise above Miyako, both of his hands resting on each side of her head “It is so hard to believe in all this, I want to, but I don’t know how, How can I be sure that you aren’t just following your plan?, trying to get me in to jail… How do I know that you aren’t getting me to do what you want?”
“Jun, If I wanted to make you do what I want, we would be on a plane right now, is not my wish for you to get in to jail”
“Then why you haven’t try to convince me to run away with you?” Miyako reached his neck, and posed her hand there, feeling his pulse “Because it doesn’t matter what I say or do, you’ll go anyway. You feel guilty for what you have done, and it doesn’t matter how many times I said it, I will never convinced you that you are a good man, and you don’t deserve this. You need to go there, to free yourself, so then I can free you” Jun dropped on top of Miyako, leaving her breathless. He hid his head in Miyako’s neck and she hold him tight in between her arms.
She could only let him cry. Caressing his trembling back.