motivation
is something i am lacking right now.
i just cant seem to find it. it's like it's somewhere under my bed and i just havent found it yet. and i dont really want to clean under the bed anyway, so i'm content to be lazy right now. but that's not an option for much longer. i have to be a grown upand a be a teacher, grade papers, that kind of thing.
and i have to write. i've been semi better about that. i submitted some stories a bit ago, so fingers crossed they'll get picked up.
but the baby has a cold. my love has a cold. i have a cold. the baby has the worst of the three of us really. she can't take medicine yet. she's under 2. so she has to suffer! ugh! poor thing. lots of saline drops, lots of booger balls. but its moved into her chest and we're just listening and doing all we can to help her. if it doesn't improve i'm taking her to the dr tomorrow.
last night we just hung out, she and i. she was fussy and tired, so i held her for about half an hour while she slept in my arms. it was the most beautiful moment of the day. the two of us together. i love that feeling. she knows i'll keep her safe. she can sleep when i'm there. and for as much as people say you shouldn't let babies fall asleep on you, or you shouldn't let them sleep when you hold them so they learn to sleep on their own, i hate it. i love the feeling of us together. i hate the having to put her down and not have that connection.
she is precious.
my love starts class tonight. he's nervous but i'm sure he'll be fine. he's good at this. he'll be fantastic. but i understand the being nervous. fingers crossed for him.
who knows? this could be the beginning of a big change for us. if/when he gets a teaching job, it might not be around here, it may involve us moving. finally moving which would be bittersweet... but possibly very needed.. who knows..
i just cant seem to find it. it's like it's somewhere under my bed and i just havent found it yet. and i dont really want to clean under the bed anyway, so i'm content to be lazy right now. but that's not an option for much longer. i have to be a grown upand a be a teacher, grade papers, that kind of thing.
and i have to write. i've been semi better about that. i submitted some stories a bit ago, so fingers crossed they'll get picked up.
but the baby has a cold. my love has a cold. i have a cold. the baby has the worst of the three of us really. she can't take medicine yet. she's under 2. so she has to suffer! ugh! poor thing. lots of saline drops, lots of booger balls. but its moved into her chest and we're just listening and doing all we can to help her. if it doesn't improve i'm taking her to the dr tomorrow.
last night we just hung out, she and i. she was fussy and tired, so i held her for about half an hour while she slept in my arms. it was the most beautiful moment of the day. the two of us together. i love that feeling. she knows i'll keep her safe. she can sleep when i'm there. and for as much as people say you shouldn't let babies fall asleep on you, or you shouldn't let them sleep when you hold them so they learn to sleep on their own, i hate it. i love the feeling of us together. i hate the having to put her down and not have that connection.
she is precious.
my love starts class tonight. he's nervous but i'm sure he'll be fine. he's good at this. he'll be fantastic. but i understand the being nervous. fingers crossed for him.
who knows? this could be the beginning of a big change for us. if/when he gets a teaching job, it might not be around here, it may involve us moving. finally moving which would be bittersweet... but possibly very needed.. who knows..