unloved is good, cool and fine
tonight was another. and this is where i would right something really moving, trying to get my spirits up and i have no words. my ventalation system is writing, from school, from parents, from work, from friends, and from another boys that cause me sucide literacy tendencys. im tired of using big words, im done. i will no longer seek attention, love or sucess in high school, i have a goal in life and that is all i will focus on. i dont need to go to partys to realize this goal, or have a million friends or go through a boyfriend a week. it is very true i would like to be able to just go have all the good understanding friends while going on fun outings every night. and to have the guy, the one guy that you think of when you get up in the morning. everyone knows the legendary need im talking about. the need for love and exceptance. in health i learned how, if you dont have that, then you could die from a lack of. im different. i carried on for 15 years without exceptance and i certainly can go on farther. i dont need love. loving myself will be enough. the love the crystal has for me, will be more than enough. a sisterly love. i dont need that different kind of love that changes your life. ive got it cover. its all taken care of. im good, im cool, and im fine. that is what i am. im unloved.