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[stupidlyblinded]

i like a boy! hes only 19 but hes to cute. he made me laugh and he didn't laugh at me or think i was gross when i went in the woods to pee! i really had to go and i didn't want to go home.plus he wasn't gonna get in my pants so i figured its not gonna be that gross if i just drip dry! omg im gonna get my hopes up about this boy and then im gonna get hurt but its worth it.im lettin myself be open again and im not gonna be scared to "try" again. everything was goin great untill he gets a phone call and its his ex...he goes on to tell her that he has to go bc "im in my truck(pause)with a girl way more beautiful then ull ever be" and i hear her say "yeah right shut up"(or something like that) and he goes "wanna make a bet?" then to me he says "say hi" so i say hi and she says some shit that i can't hear. something about "ull be callin me when ur done with her" or some shit. so that kinda ruined the "makeout" mood so i told him to just bring me home.he gets on this kick about whos truck is better joes(my ex) or his. i love joes truck im not gonna lie,i loved bein in it bc it made me look cooler! but his truck is also nice. its a dogde(which i love) its a hemi(which my mom loves) and its something i would drive myself so of course i like his better! but i still love joes! anyways his ex ruined the mood and he made a comment about not answerin his phone next time,but then said well i have to bc of work(which i understand) so i made a comment to not hold a conversation with her next time if she calls. she fuckin ruined the mood seriously,bc i knew he was upset she called and if i started kissin him again i woulda felt like he was thinkin about her. so i don't fuckin know but i know everyones gonna be happy to hear about this! yeah sister thats right i might have a bf soon! i know ur happy!

i put this same thing in my myspace blogs,but i wanted u guys to read it and u don't normally read the ones on myspace...and by u guys i mean steffie and erin! and danica if she still reads this!