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i think im going crazy. and im serious about it. i just havent felt myself lately. and ive been drinking more than usual.
is it weird to talk to yourself?
...
...but tonight was awesome. thank you angie for a good time. so much fun. :-) and now that you're gone, its so shitty! its like i left reality for 3 hours and now i have to face it again. and it will be even worse when i feel sober. gahhhhhhhhhh.
i dont want to talk to anyone right now. just myself. its the only guaranteed thing. when i talk to other people and explain to them how i feel, whos to say they're even listening? they cant perceive what i say, the way i can. im the only one that understands me and i'll never let go of that.
i kinda think thats the same for everyone though.
nobody understands anyone. people can relate thoughts to others, but the way you feel about something and how you express it, is completely your own. its all individual.
how come it happened like this. especially tonight. im so fucked up.
it reminds me of the stock market crash of '29 or something,. what the hell am i talking about . ahh....
and tomorrow is another day.
and it'll be "the icing on the piece of cake"
"WITH THE GRAHAM CRACKER CRUST... THE SLIVER... WITH THE CHERRY ON TOP"
im fuckin done here.
is it weird to talk to yourself?
...
...but tonight was awesome. thank you angie for a good time. so much fun. :-) and now that you're gone, its so shitty! its like i left reality for 3 hours and now i have to face it again. and it will be even worse when i feel sober. gahhhhhhhhhh.
i dont want to talk to anyone right now. just myself. its the only guaranteed thing. when i talk to other people and explain to them how i feel, whos to say they're even listening? they cant perceive what i say, the way i can. im the only one that understands me and i'll never let go of that.
i kinda think thats the same for everyone though.
nobody understands anyone. people can relate thoughts to others, but the way you feel about something and how you express it, is completely your own. its all individual.
how come it happened like this. especially tonight. im so fucked up.
it reminds me of the stock market crash of '29 or something,. what the hell am i talking about . ahh....
and tomorrow is another day.
and it'll be "the icing on the piece of cake"
"WITH THE GRAHAM CRACKER CRUST... THE SLIVER... WITH THE CHERRY ON TOP"
im fuckin done here.