tonight again
meh ive just been on msn all day talking to people what an excitin life all theres is in my house is meat and cause im a veggie it doesnt really help jamie is on he begged me to try and get back on earlier and now i am on hes being really weird which i realy dont like spec if i told him only yest that i like him well good side of things are i got a pic of him :D everyone keeps asking who he is so i have 2 explain mcneills my hubby and i totally forgot silly me oh well at least were only in a open marriage were really strange friends i love him to bits and if anything happens to him i would die cause i love him so much as a friend not in the way everyone think im on about cause everytime were with each other we hug a lot and hold hands but its just called being really close friends and looking out for each other im so gonna kill jamie when i see him (not the 1 from glasgow) casue he went to the pub with our money last night im so angry but im sad 2 cause the whole guy situation somethings up with scott (mcneill) im really worried i want to find out what it is cause i dont like it when hes all down it upsets me to cause i get so worried about him cause he wont tell me meh jamie isnt talking :( things were getting better until a few moments ago well i supose thats what lifes all about eh i am pretty sad spending most of my time worrying bout my friends and bout guys that i like when i should be focussing on my own life but i supose thats what people like about me how i always dont focus on myself and i focus more on others i dunno what people see in me to be honest not even guys cause i just blow everything im suck a fuck up and ive only just noticed it wow what a great life