some of us are really born to die

[stupid_face13]

there isnt anything for me to say anymore. not really atleast. not for the time being. for a long time i thought i knew what i wanted, i thought life was great, and i thought i knew what was in store. but i mean really, no one ever knows. anything can change at any moment. i dont want to say that you shouldnt hold on to NOTHING at all just because

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[xhopelostx]

i duno, i know i was supposed to call you since i had something to tell you, but now i dont feel like talking. . cuz i just feel dumb so ill just tell you what i had to say and more here. Well what i was gona tell you when i called, was sorry for being a bitch earlier like when you left my house. im just gona be straight up. when you told me you made out with that girl. i was jelous. i knew i would be. i told keely and everyone i hang out with that i know id be jelous if you dated another girl and alla that. and i was talking to emily today, i was like i know hes not gona wait around forever. . but i dunno. im sorry. i just feel blank now. im glad youve figured everything out i guess. i mean i had my chance and i blew it. . . it was me taking too long and spoiling what i could have had ya know. i obviously miss you and love you still, otherwise i wouldnt be jelous, and check up on ur lj every chance i get even if u havent updated. . :/. . . i duno i fucked up. but i love you so much. . like this sucks. but i mean i guess you're right. . i shouldnt have fucked around with shit. god i dont even know what to say. its all in my head, but its too much to put into words. . i guess ill ttyl .

[stupid_face13]

mica, just know, that i DONT have everything figured out...not at all