It's been a heavy two months
It's been awhile of course, and unfortunately I have very little good stuff to report. My life has been in shambles, been emotional mentally and I've been wiped out physically.
Let's see...where to begin?
Chad is no longer my roomate, nor my manager at the Brickhouse. He quit. After dealing with a lot of bull at the restaurant he quit, the very afternoon he quit, my other roomate Tom, was fired. Chad decided during the period that he waited around that he was moving back to Kansas...in a week and a half. Leaving me and Tom to fend for ourselves. Chads departure was very emotional for me. I've become quite close to him over the year and a half I've known him. He became sort of like an older brother for me. He filled a role that I seem to lose so frequently. Dougs departure was a similar one. Chad is gone, back in Kansas, we have a big empty room that we wake up to everyday. Money has been real tight...real tight, as now I'm paying double my rent. Hopefully we'll have a roomate in soon, I'm just sitting on my decision as to letting the person move in or not. Due to Chads departure and Toms firing at the brickhouse, I lost a lot of respect for my management and some co-workers. I've never worked a job as I have at he brickhouse, and time tends to really fly there. I've been there over a year and a half, but it seems that it has been much longer. I'm one of the handful of staff, theres the three managers, and three chefs and myself all that have been there over a year and a half, the rest of the staff is new. I'm constantly getting frustrated with them, and am missing the old vibes of the place. It's not as fun as it used to be. T
That news is about 3 weeks old, maybe two, its still quite recent though. However, I got some really shitty news monday. This time from D.O.R.S. I'm not even sure this is legal. The bolding and underlining is done by me.
Hi Mark. I know it's nearing final exams now and I am sure you're under
the stress studying for your finals. I wish you the best of luck.
Your IPE expires on December 30th and we need to meet again and renew
it. However, I do NOT want to drop the bomb on you when you meet with
me
so I am going to inform you this information in advance to better
prepare you with the news.
I was informed by Springfield office that I was mistaken for sponsoring
your education this semester due to financial information. I was
perplexed by this but my former supervisor who retired never informed
me of this so now I am taking the heat for it.
We are required to collect your parents' income and since you are not
receiving SSI benefits and you are under the age of 24 in the eyes of
FAFSA, we cannot sponsor your education. This is because your parents
exceed the income requirement and they are supposed to pay for your
education expenses. I felt bad about this and I explained to
Springfield
that your parents would not help you out, they said it was out of our
hands. Unless you receive SSI benefits, we cannot sponsor. They said if
you receive SSI benefits, we will not need your parents' income because
once you get SSI benefits, you are considered independent. I was like
"uh oh now what do I do?" I truly feel bad about this because I know
how
hard you are having with your finances paying for your education at
Columbia.
I know it would not be possible for you to get SSI benefits before
spring semester begins however I would like you to try to apply for SSI
benefits once again. I have a business card from Nash Disability Law
attorney who helps people get SSI benefits when they were being denied.
They do not collect money from you until the case wins and they will
deduct the money from the lum sum money that SSI will owe you. So, if
you apply and get denied once again, bring the previous denial letter
and the newest one to Nash Disability Law office for assistance with
getting SSI benefits. It is up to you.
I know you have 2 long years before you turn 24 years old and become
independent from your parents' income under FAFSA's eyes. So, I want
you
to take the time and think about what you can do about this before you
meet with me. I know it's devastating for you and I didn't want this to
happen but I have to go by our policy which I got heated for.
Would you be available to meet with me on the week of December 18th?
I'm available all week so far. Let me know so I can confirm your
appointment date/time. Thanks. Again, I'm sorry.
Simply put...I may have to drop outta school for a bit. I only have ONE more year left, I'm on track...or was on track to graduate by next spring. Not anymore.
Let me break this letter down. For those of you reading this, some of you know my struggles with DORS over the past 5 years. They've rejected me up until this past semester. Take note where my counsler mentions that "her former supervisor retired without informing her of the situation". Let me state here that her supervisor that retired is Jean Baker. My OLD counsler who I fought with for four long years. Jean never supported me...not once. Jean's exact words to me two years ago when I started attending Columbia were "I'm setting myself up to fail". By being a person with my hearing status going into the Music field and audio field that I'm in, I'm not going to make it. It didn't matter to her that I was going into an audio field to LEARN ABOUT MY HEARING and TO LEARN WHY and HOW TO HELP others and myself and that regardless of what the paper says I can or cannot hear, YOU'RE THE ONE TELLING ME THAT I CANNOT SUCCEED. This coming from an organization that is supposed to support me. Jean never liked the fact that I was doing my own thing, she didn't trust the fact that I was going to Southern Illinois or Columbia. She always encouraged me to attend RIT or NIU.
My new counsler who I was given about a year ago was pretty cool. She worked with me, helped me out and it seemed she fought for me. She told me it might be possible and easier to obtain sponsorship if I moved out. So I did. I took a huge financial risk and moved out. Pay my rent, tuition and bills. I got my sponsorship for this semester because I proved I was financially independent from my parents.
UH-OH. WHOOPS. WE FUCKED UP AND NOW YOU MUST PAY sorry. What? wait...it is not I who must pay...but "We are required to collect your parents' income" THEY ARE ASKING FOR THIER MONEY BACK NOT FROM ME, BUT FROM MY PARENTS. umm...hey, didn't I tell you my parents aren't supporting me financially (They are helping me out, but that's not for DORS to know. I'm supposed to be paying the majority of my tuition (but due to my current roomate situation and having to pay double the rent and double the bills I can't pay off my tuition.
How can they legally ask for my parents income to cover the money they sponsored me? This is going to court. This is fucked up.
My counsler also wants to meet with me for an IPE. WHY THE FUCK DO YOU CARE ABOUT MY PROGRESS IN SCHOOL? You just told me you can't sponsor me, yet you wanna see how I'm doing along and if I'm meeting your fucking standards. HA. Fuck off.
SSI will never sponsor me. Especially not at the moment. I work two jobs. I work long and hard. I earn my own damn money. I make to much that SSI will not sponsor me. DORS basically would tell me to quit one job and obtain an SSI check and make significantly less money so they can pay me $4,000. Riggghhht. Then how am I supposed to pay rent and bills? what kinda of fucking shit ass state run federal bunk cunt crap shit ran tampon sucking fist fucking hitler loving people run this place? Secondly, SSI completely discriminated against me, of course I applied in hicksville southern illinois and they thought I was faking them. Supposedly I talk to good for them and that means I can do just fine in life. Well fuckholes, I went through 11 years of speech therapy crap and happen to be lucky that I can talk as well as I do...but hey douchebags...I still have a fucking hearing problem that interferes with my everyday life.
So now what am I supposed to do? My dad is talking with lawyers, there is no way in hell I'm gonna let my dad pay them any money back. They fucked up. Not us. All I've been doing is taking advantage of the services provided to me.
Argh. To much to fast.
On a positive note, I'm slowly approaching girlfriendom, it's going real slow but its progressing, things are getting better, goin on another date this week so we'll see how things work out. Not gonna say to much about this though because I could be wrong.
Other than all that crap things are looking smoother on industry wise and networking wise. Doing a lot of socializing with Umphrey's and crew, breaking my way in, taking part in a lot of north side music as well too, so I'm getting there. Struggling, but getting there, getting known.
_paradise out.
Let's see...where to begin?
Chad is no longer my roomate, nor my manager at the Brickhouse. He quit. After dealing with a lot of bull at the restaurant he quit, the very afternoon he quit, my other roomate Tom, was fired. Chad decided during the period that he waited around that he was moving back to Kansas...in a week and a half. Leaving me and Tom to fend for ourselves. Chads departure was very emotional for me. I've become quite close to him over the year and a half I've known him. He became sort of like an older brother for me. He filled a role that I seem to lose so frequently. Dougs departure was a similar one. Chad is gone, back in Kansas, we have a big empty room that we wake up to everyday. Money has been real tight...real tight, as now I'm paying double my rent. Hopefully we'll have a roomate in soon, I'm just sitting on my decision as to letting the person move in or not. Due to Chads departure and Toms firing at the brickhouse, I lost a lot of respect for my management and some co-workers. I've never worked a job as I have at he brickhouse, and time tends to really fly there. I've been there over a year and a half, but it seems that it has been much longer. I'm one of the handful of staff, theres the three managers, and three chefs and myself all that have been there over a year and a half, the rest of the staff is new. I'm constantly getting frustrated with them, and am missing the old vibes of the place. It's not as fun as it used to be. T
That news is about 3 weeks old, maybe two, its still quite recent though. However, I got some really shitty news monday. This time from D.O.R.S. I'm not even sure this is legal. The bolding and underlining is done by me.
Hi Mark. I know it's nearing final exams now and I am sure you're under
the stress studying for your finals. I wish you the best of luck.
Your IPE expires on December 30th and we need to meet again and renew
it. However, I do NOT want to drop the bomb on you when you meet with
me
so I am going to inform you this information in advance to better
prepare you with the news.
I was informed by Springfield office that I was mistaken for sponsoring
your education this semester due to financial information. I was
perplexed by this but my former supervisor who retired never informed
me of this so now I am taking the heat for it.
We are required to collect your parents' income and since you are not
receiving SSI benefits and you are under the age of 24 in the eyes of
FAFSA, we cannot sponsor your education. This is because your parents
exceed the income requirement and they are supposed to pay for your
education expenses. I felt bad about this and I explained to
Springfield
that your parents would not help you out, they said it was out of our
hands. Unless you receive SSI benefits, we cannot sponsor. They said if
you receive SSI benefits, we will not need your parents' income because
once you get SSI benefits, you are considered independent. I was like
"uh oh now what do I do?" I truly feel bad about this because I know
how
hard you are having with your finances paying for your education at
Columbia.
I know it would not be possible for you to get SSI benefits before
spring semester begins however I would like you to try to apply for SSI
benefits once again. I have a business card from Nash Disability Law
attorney who helps people get SSI benefits when they were being denied.
They do not collect money from you until the case wins and they will
deduct the money from the lum sum money that SSI will owe you. So, if
you apply and get denied once again, bring the previous denial letter
and the newest one to Nash Disability Law office for assistance with
getting SSI benefits. It is up to you.
I know you have 2 long years before you turn 24 years old and become
independent from your parents' income under FAFSA's eyes. So, I want
you
to take the time and think about what you can do about this before you
meet with me. I know it's devastating for you and I didn't want this to
happen but I have to go by our policy which I got heated for.
Would you be available to meet with me on the week of December 18th?
I'm available all week so far. Let me know so I can confirm your
appointment date/time. Thanks. Again, I'm sorry.
Simply put...I may have to drop outta school for a bit. I only have ONE more year left, I'm on track...or was on track to graduate by next spring. Not anymore.
Let me break this letter down. For those of you reading this, some of you know my struggles with DORS over the past 5 years. They've rejected me up until this past semester. Take note where my counsler mentions that "her former supervisor retired without informing her of the situation". Let me state here that her supervisor that retired is Jean Baker. My OLD counsler who I fought with for four long years. Jean never supported me...not once. Jean's exact words to me two years ago when I started attending Columbia were "I'm setting myself up to fail". By being a person with my hearing status going into the Music field and audio field that I'm in, I'm not going to make it. It didn't matter to her that I was going into an audio field to LEARN ABOUT MY HEARING and TO LEARN WHY and HOW TO HELP others and myself and that regardless of what the paper says I can or cannot hear, YOU'RE THE ONE TELLING ME THAT I CANNOT SUCCEED. This coming from an organization that is supposed to support me. Jean never liked the fact that I was doing my own thing, she didn't trust the fact that I was going to Southern Illinois or Columbia. She always encouraged me to attend RIT or NIU.
My new counsler who I was given about a year ago was pretty cool. She worked with me, helped me out and it seemed she fought for me. She told me it might be possible and easier to obtain sponsorship if I moved out. So I did. I took a huge financial risk and moved out. Pay my rent, tuition and bills. I got my sponsorship for this semester because I proved I was financially independent from my parents.
UH-OH. WHOOPS. WE FUCKED UP AND NOW YOU MUST PAY sorry. What? wait...it is not I who must pay...but "We are required to collect your parents' income" THEY ARE ASKING FOR THIER MONEY BACK NOT FROM ME, BUT FROM MY PARENTS. umm...hey, didn't I tell you my parents aren't supporting me financially (They are helping me out, but that's not for DORS to know. I'm supposed to be paying the majority of my tuition (but due to my current roomate situation and having to pay double the rent and double the bills I can't pay off my tuition.
How can they legally ask for my parents income to cover the money they sponsored me? This is going to court. This is fucked up.
My counsler also wants to meet with me for an IPE. WHY THE FUCK DO YOU CARE ABOUT MY PROGRESS IN SCHOOL? You just told me you can't sponsor me, yet you wanna see how I'm doing along and if I'm meeting your fucking standards. HA. Fuck off.
SSI will never sponsor me. Especially not at the moment. I work two jobs. I work long and hard. I earn my own damn money. I make to much that SSI will not sponsor me. DORS basically would tell me to quit one job and obtain an SSI check and make significantly less money so they can pay me $4,000. Riggghhht. Then how am I supposed to pay rent and bills? what kinda of fucking shit ass state run federal bunk cunt crap shit ran tampon sucking fist fucking hitler loving people run this place? Secondly, SSI completely discriminated against me, of course I applied in hicksville southern illinois and they thought I was faking them. Supposedly I talk to good for them and that means I can do just fine in life. Well fuckholes, I went through 11 years of speech therapy crap and happen to be lucky that I can talk as well as I do...but hey douchebags...I still have a fucking hearing problem that interferes with my everyday life.
So now what am I supposed to do? My dad is talking with lawyers, there is no way in hell I'm gonna let my dad pay them any money back. They fucked up. Not us. All I've been doing is taking advantage of the services provided to me.
Argh. To much to fast.
On a positive note, I'm slowly approaching girlfriendom, it's going real slow but its progressing, things are getting better, goin on another date this week so we'll see how things work out. Not gonna say to much about this though because I could be wrong.
Other than all that crap things are looking smoother on industry wise and networking wise. Doing a lot of socializing with Umphrey's and crew, breaking my way in, taking part in a lot of north side music as well too, so I'm getting there. Struggling, but getting there, getting known.
_paradise out.