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today is red wine for lost love.
i'm doing the best that i can, trying to relive bad memories, and reminding myself that it's only i who loves him, and not him that loves me.
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i think i forget how much trees have been a part of my life. all throughout my childhood i have grown up looking out the window at the emotive branches, the positions of the wind against the leaves are speaking philosophies to me; decisions i made decades ago when the initial interpretation was the only one, and i'm feeling i have lost a language. and they weren't just trees, these were forests that were my adventures, my protectors, my first experiences of the world around me were trees trees tress, eucalyptus, taught to be exotic, from australia. these are the bases of foreign feelings, like i was involved in something not normal. my mother. student housing. these are ascribed images of what defined me separately. i am wary of and sensitive to differences i carry.
i'm doing the best that i can, trying to relive bad memories, and reminding myself that it's only i who loves him, and not him that loves me.
.....
i think i forget how much trees have been a part of my life. all throughout my childhood i have grown up looking out the window at the emotive branches, the positions of the wind against the leaves are speaking philosophies to me; decisions i made decades ago when the initial interpretation was the only one, and i'm feeling i have lost a language. and they weren't just trees, these were forests that were my adventures, my protectors, my first experiences of the world around me were trees trees tress, eucalyptus, taught to be exotic, from australia. these are the bases of foreign feelings, like i was involved in something not normal. my mother. student housing. these are ascribed images of what defined me separately. i am wary of and sensitive to differences i carry.