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im so sick of myself, and now i know exactly what's my problem and it sucks to admit it. i'm always left alone, i'm always bitter. nothing is ever perfect. is that my problem? i want perfection.
erik gave off vibes like he was attracted to me still. he's probably the only person more confused than me right now. i wish i could live in a national park, and make hot dogs every night. i wish denis still loved me. and we could live off in seclusion somewhere where everyone forgot us and i didn't care. to not exist with someone is the ultimate goal for me. to be detached; to be void; the be disparate and to understand my surroundings is what i'm looking for most back from my time. i'm often living in cycles. revisiting my past.
erik gave off vibes like he was attracted to me still. he's probably the only person more confused than me right now. i wish i could live in a national park, and make hot dogs every night. i wish denis still loved me. and we could live off in seclusion somewhere where everyone forgot us and i didn't care. to not exist with someone is the ultimate goal for me. to be detached; to be void; the be disparate and to understand my surroundings is what i'm looking for most back from my time. i'm often living in cycles. revisiting my past.