who did? you did.
today i feel a lot better. granted i know in the future that i won't have the entire day to my leisure, that i will probably be having to do work at this time, i really needed this day to relax and ease back into just being here instead of being home. i needed a good night sleep and a good, calm feeling day to give me the confidence that i can do this, that i am going to be ok and have a great semester.
the weather is beautiful! it is sunny and it is pushing 70 degrees. i went to yoga this morning for the first time in over a year, and i didn't do half bad, although it's gonna take some getting back into. but i felt good, strong, and i went to go get a samwich afterwards, and ate outside in the sunshine.
i am feeling healthy. it was a good day as opposed to yesterday. yesterday wasn't that bad, i suppose. but there were some things that kinda got in the way of it being spectacular. classes went well, and i chose carrie gault's studio instead of greg's, like i originally planned. since they did a lottery system and started at the letter S this time, i was worried that i wasn't going to get my first choice, but i did! i chose carrie's studio, even though i am a little concerned that she is going to be tough, because she was all about the social implications and responsiblities of architecture, which i am very interested in as well. although i would have liked to do the reseach that greg's studio is doing, i think carrie's will be equally good, as for our final project, we will be doing site analysis, which i always enjoy as well.
she also mentioned how we wouldn't always be staying at studio, but going to her firm downtown to really just get out there in the world and learn more than being cooped up in studio, which i am excited about as well. the final has something to do with creating housing (HOUSING!!!) for artists in an artisan community, that will have to be economical and what not, and be in an urban context, a project which also really appealed to me as well. so the semester is looking up.
me and nathan walked all the way to chen's bistro and had a nice dinner and good conversation. we walked back and hung out in my room for a while and talked about various things. it was a good time. i let that walking count as my workout for the day. ha. then... after he left, drew came over. he stayed until about 3 in the morning, and i told him, i mean, i didn't get pissy or anything, i just said, you know, what has happened hurts, and i just let him know how i felt. i don't want to be used, and be just a piece of ass. we talked, watched an x files, and he just held me like always. afterward i knew that he wasn't going to spend the night. since we're not having a relationship really, we've decided that we really shouldn't be doing 'things,' but he mentioned that we could spend some nights together, that we would see. and that is fine really. just relaxing and not stressing over it. but he held me so tight last night. he said he couldn't hold me tight enough. and then we kissed, and i just, ah. we are going to be good friends. we are just different people, and we needed to work some things out. we'll see what happens.
i am spending the rest of the day with some cleaning, laundry, getting the place back in order after leaving in a hurry for christmas break, and just relaxing. i started taking luvox yesterday, and i feel amazing right now. if the side effects don't start up, i am really optimistic that i will really be able to relax and focus.
the weather is beautiful! it is sunny and it is pushing 70 degrees. i went to yoga this morning for the first time in over a year, and i didn't do half bad, although it's gonna take some getting back into. but i felt good, strong, and i went to go get a samwich afterwards, and ate outside in the sunshine.
i am feeling healthy. it was a good day as opposed to yesterday. yesterday wasn't that bad, i suppose. but there were some things that kinda got in the way of it being spectacular. classes went well, and i chose carrie gault's studio instead of greg's, like i originally planned. since they did a lottery system and started at the letter S this time, i was worried that i wasn't going to get my first choice, but i did! i chose carrie's studio, even though i am a little concerned that she is going to be tough, because she was all about the social implications and responsiblities of architecture, which i am very interested in as well. although i would have liked to do the reseach that greg's studio is doing, i think carrie's will be equally good, as for our final project, we will be doing site analysis, which i always enjoy as well.
she also mentioned how we wouldn't always be staying at studio, but going to her firm downtown to really just get out there in the world and learn more than being cooped up in studio, which i am excited about as well. the final has something to do with creating housing (HOUSING!!!) for artists in an artisan community, that will have to be economical and what not, and be in an urban context, a project which also really appealed to me as well. so the semester is looking up.
me and nathan walked all the way to chen's bistro and had a nice dinner and good conversation. we walked back and hung out in my room for a while and talked about various things. it was a good time. i let that walking count as my workout for the day. ha. then... after he left, drew came over. he stayed until about 3 in the morning, and i told him, i mean, i didn't get pissy or anything, i just said, you know, what has happened hurts, and i just let him know how i felt. i don't want to be used, and be just a piece of ass. we talked, watched an x files, and he just held me like always. afterward i knew that he wasn't going to spend the night. since we're not having a relationship really, we've decided that we really shouldn't be doing 'things,' but he mentioned that we could spend some nights together, that we would see. and that is fine really. just relaxing and not stressing over it. but he held me so tight last night. he said he couldn't hold me tight enough. and then we kissed, and i just, ah. we are going to be good friends. we are just different people, and we needed to work some things out. we'll see what happens.
i am spending the rest of the day with some cleaning, laundry, getting the place back in order after leaving in a hurry for christmas break, and just relaxing. i started taking luvox yesterday, and i feel amazing right now. if the side effects don't start up, i am really optimistic that i will really be able to relax and focus.