Sep 29, 2004 23:08
Who am I trying to fool? I am not cool. I am not original. I am not unique.
I feel so plain.... so ordinary... so left behind----I'm 22--not in school and taking on my boyfriend's dreams of business success as my own.
I feel shallow---- no jagged edges----- spontaneous only on cue... plain... ...and my most horrifying truth is that I'm a follower.
...a follower?!?! me???? yes.
.... no, I'm not a follower------ I can't be----
I don't feel well right now.