one chance to break out.
so apparently i missed rehearsal yesterday. i didn't know i had to be there. eek. i hope i'm not in trouble.
oh well, i spent all of after school prepping for last night.
which by the way, was amazing. it all worked out wonderfully. it turned out perfect. i was very happy with it. i loved it.
it was good.
i did it.
that alone is a victory.
so today, i'm hanging out with my family minus my dad and plus 3 other kids from another family.
and cleaning up the remnants of last night.
and my room.
i just read my old posts on here- wow. as much as i have changed, i haven't simultaneously.
weird.
when talking about boys, i'm still pretty much the same.
which sucks... i thought i changed more.
maybe it's just the situations i'm in.
and the people i'm with.
and positivity.
and not getting into trouble, being a good kid. [way more fun than i thought.]
you're bitter.
you're bitter.
you're bitter.
my fault?
i did this?
it's my fault that we're not really friends anymore?
;aslkdjf;asldkfja;sdl.
i didn't even know that.
tori told me.
ugh.
you don't even have the balls to tell me.
you post it on the stupid internet, knowing i'll read it.
[the only difference here is that you won't read this.]
you're so annoying.
so stupid.
so juvenille.
so ridiculous.
i'm glad we're "not really friends anymore".
i'm glad we're not as close as we were a year ago.
i'm glad.
i'm happier now, without you.
i am.
and you should be too.
but if you're not, that's not really my problem.
harsh, i know.
but i'm better off now.
it's better off this way, it really is.
you're a stupid stupid girl.
i'm so done.
i care about you, but i'm done trying.
it was a collective thing.
we both did it.
it's nobody's fault.
not alone anyway.
we don't have similar interests. we don't have similar friends. we don't have similar goals or dreams.
love isn't all you need.
but i'm happier, i really am.
things are good.
this is just frustrating.
oh well, i spent all of after school prepping for last night.
which by the way, was amazing. it all worked out wonderfully. it turned out perfect. i was very happy with it. i loved it.
it was good.
i did it.
that alone is a victory.
so today, i'm hanging out with my family minus my dad and plus 3 other kids from another family.
and cleaning up the remnants of last night.
and my room.
i just read my old posts on here- wow. as much as i have changed, i haven't simultaneously.
weird.
when talking about boys, i'm still pretty much the same.
which sucks... i thought i changed more.
maybe it's just the situations i'm in.
and the people i'm with.
and positivity.
and not getting into trouble, being a good kid. [way more fun than i thought.]
you're bitter.
you're bitter.
you're bitter.
my fault?
i did this?
it's my fault that we're not really friends anymore?
;aslkdjf;asldkfja;sdl.
i didn't even know that.
tori told me.
ugh.
you don't even have the balls to tell me.
you post it on the stupid internet, knowing i'll read it.
[the only difference here is that you won't read this.]
you're so annoying.
so stupid.
so juvenille.
so ridiculous.
i'm glad we're "not really friends anymore".
i'm glad we're not as close as we were a year ago.
i'm glad.
i'm happier now, without you.
i am.
and you should be too.
but if you're not, that's not really my problem.
harsh, i know.
but i'm better off now.
it's better off this way, it really is.
you're a stupid stupid girl.
i'm so done.
i care about you, but i'm done trying.
it was a collective thing.
we both did it.
it's nobody's fault.
not alone anyway.
we don't have similar interests. we don't have similar friends. we don't have similar goals or dreams.
love isn't all you need.
but i'm happier, i really am.
things are good.
this is just frustrating.