A non-rhyming, spur of the moment poem

[strongluv4him17]

Everyday I search for something
The answers to my grieving questions
But no matter who I ask
They never really know

They say that I must believe
Just have faith
That's something that's hard to do
When you've lost so much in your life

I've lost my patience
I've lost my pride
I've lost my courage
I've lost my neice

I lost a friend
I'm losing so many more
Not because I want to
But because of time

I'm losing my childhood
Soon to become an 18 year old
But I know I won't be an adult
I haven't grown up yet

My life is slipping through my hands
And I am not sure what to do
I feel I have no control
Of what my future holds

So many suprises have come
Just within the past few years
And none have been that good
Some changed me forever

I know that I am never going to be the same
I can't... not after so much has been lost
I think I've lost my faith
And the only thing I have seemed to have gained is hope

Hope for something better
For answers and peace
Hope that I never have to lose someone that way again
And hope that my angel is watching over me; guiding my way.