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friday was alright. saturday i didn't want to go up north with my bros but thought i should anyway. it was disturbing and for a good amount of time i felt like i was wasting my time until i started driving. brunch was cool and everyone is nutty. i found bodega bay and we buried james. then ate at a nice restaurant with sub par food. it ended up being a really cool day because of ved. got home around 10 then saw ben theo swap and sebastion got home again spoke for second on the phone and woke up the next day to clean and shit. everyone came by and i was mad at sumeet for bringing his girlfriend. yes. she's cool but i feel bad for her and bad for the system in which they are both trapped. he acts hard and she finds it funny and likes driving to sf every day to see him because he IS a tight ass guy and he doesn't ALWAYS treat act weird but still. went to sfo then for some golf then to dinner then to cinema. woke up the next day and post-poned a meeting. ate, headed to sf. by 3 was riding the wiggle and through gg park. got to the beach and was having a pretty good time with just me and my bro. even though i see a real side of him, he likes the other sides he's got as well. i feel like i've seen a lot of people like this and it becomes frustrating to see the sides that aren't as cool. i am actually stuck in something bad too. if people feel like theyve changed things will. i guess irony on me. i want to write more about my summer because i dont even know wtf i did in june or early july. it seems distant with a distant feeling in my body which should still be there. i can't prove this and i don't know if it should break me or what. i don't want to let anything go but everything from before seems not to matter anymore. i wish i could cry and wish everything was more than just chemicals. i wish that a lot. set me on fire