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my computer's finallllly baaack. i was so excited. how lame--it's been like 6 days.
today was a weird day. or maybe i was just weird today. i don't know.
everythings been pretty good since the last time i updated (well minus today and the "hangup" last night). last weekend was nice. went to scholastics after school on friday at country day for art task force. had fun with erica saving sam's life. ha. good times. then i went home and went to che cosa with kelsey and chris. that was gooood except it closed like a half hour after we got there. but its all good because chris played us some songs on the piano and me and kelsey decided he should be a musician when he grows up so we can go to all of his shows. mmm. thatd be fun. and we reminisced about the good times me kelsey and erica had sophomore year goin to the vendrettis shows. :-/ that was fun. so friday was excellent.
saturday was also grand. had dance, took a nap, and then called kelsey to see what was going on. got ready and met the KKK at katelynn's to decide what we were doing. of course it takes us 34837856 hours to figure stuff out but finally we decided to go eat at applebees. had a niiiiice long conversation there. lol who spends 3 hours in applebees? us. haa. well we talked about some stuff...well alotta stuff and it was good times. and then i call my mom to tell her i'm on my way home and she's like "ohh, me and andy are just leaving to go bowling! meet us there" lmao so i went bowling with the fam till 2am. haha, yeah my family's a little abnormal. whatta ya gunna do
sooo yeah last weekend was busy and good. this weekend is gunna be crappy. i don't have anything to do and we dont have school now until wednesday! so if anyone wants to hang out with me, lol, i'm down.
so im driving home from working out tonight and listening to straylight run and i was already in a shitty mood and everything just seemed shitty. and for some odd dumb reason, i was a having a weak, desperate, characteristic moment and i called him. all i wanted was a hug. im sick of this stupid "are we friends or arent we friends" "i kinda like you but dont wanna spend time with you" "i'd rather not see you but i dont want you to know that" "I actually really don't care about you" SHIT. and i just wanted everything to be okay again. so i called him again. and left him a message. just a call. thats it. so i started heading towards his house. i called him again and decided this was it. still no answer.
so, as for now, i just want you to know i'm done. i can't do this anymore.