yay for snow.
so, we all got our wishes.
no school :-D
some things never change. maybe it's just how i see certain things though i dont know. but sometimes i feel like i could say something nonstop for 20 hundred thousand hours, you guys would completly agree with me, and the next second, it'd be exactly the same again. whats worse--- having something going on and getting pissed everytime, but hiding it to save the drama. orrrr seeing somethin go on and say something about it, which causes the drama but at least they know how you feel?
i dont know anymore. i really like for people to know how i feel but seriously it seems like a waste of time. because i'm really starting to think its me. i'll just never have the same relationship as they have. and somehow i need to accept that. i guess next year it really wont matter but it's kinda hard to deal with. but it's inevitable. i guess?
who the hell knows.
im not upset or anything. this entry kinda makes it sound like it but im in a pretty good mood.
im going to work out in a little bit (Jamaica's in 80 days! gotta lose those lb's!) and then getting my hair done. should be a good time :-D
everyone enjoy your snow daysss! well except for those of you who didnt have one coughSTEVENSONcough. mwahahah.
ha. speaking of jeff...he called me last night. it was actually one of the veryyyyyy few conversations i've actually enjoyed with him in a loooong time. it wasnt long or in-depth or anything special. it was just a nice "i was thinkin about you, just wanted to see how you were doing" call. i liked it :-) it's weird. i really think i have different personalities sometimes because somedays i really wouldnt give a shit if he ever talked to me or called me again. and then, all it takes is a simple 15 minute phone call for me to think we should be friends and to want to make the effort again. howeverrr. i've been there, done that before and gotten crushed. but i think as long as i dont have too many expectations and dont put too much into it, it could be a good thing. i dont know. i guess we shall see.
good day my loves.
xox
no school :-D
some things never change. maybe it's just how i see certain things though i dont know. but sometimes i feel like i could say something nonstop for 20 hundred thousand hours, you guys would completly agree with me, and the next second, it'd be exactly the same again. whats worse--- having something going on and getting pissed everytime, but hiding it to save the drama. orrrr seeing somethin go on and say something about it, which causes the drama but at least they know how you feel?
i dont know anymore. i really like for people to know how i feel but seriously it seems like a waste of time. because i'm really starting to think its me. i'll just never have the same relationship as they have. and somehow i need to accept that. i guess next year it really wont matter but it's kinda hard to deal with. but it's inevitable. i guess?
who the hell knows.
im not upset or anything. this entry kinda makes it sound like it but im in a pretty good mood.
im going to work out in a little bit (Jamaica's in 80 days! gotta lose those lb's!) and then getting my hair done. should be a good time :-D
everyone enjoy your snow daysss! well except for those of you who didnt have one coughSTEVENSONcough. mwahahah.
ha. speaking of jeff...he called me last night. it was actually one of the veryyyyyy few conversations i've actually enjoyed with him in a loooong time. it wasnt long or in-depth or anything special. it was just a nice "i was thinkin about you, just wanted to see how you were doing" call. i liked it :-) it's weird. i really think i have different personalities sometimes because somedays i really wouldnt give a shit if he ever talked to me or called me again. and then, all it takes is a simple 15 minute phone call for me to think we should be friends and to want to make the effort again. howeverrr. i've been there, done that before and gotten crushed. but i think as long as i dont have too many expectations and dont put too much into it, it could be a good thing. i dont know. i guess we shall see.
good day my loves.
xox