i take it all back
a) i dont miss him. really i just missed my friends and i remembered always being at his house.
i forgot however that being there meant being bored. wishing he'd want to do something and him always just begging for sex. constantly showing him love and never getting it back why would i miss that.
b) YES KATHERINE I WANT KITTIES!!! i want to pet and hug and cuddle little kitties all day long. after 6 works too though.
i need to learn not to displace my discontentment with myself on other situations that have gone wrong. its not anyones fault but myself that things go wrong. and im aware of this. but i wish people would realize that yes thier actions do affect others. like with him. i wish he'd realize that though hed been in love before i hadnt. so of course i didnt react perfecly i had no idea what the fuck was going on. but despite what the boy likes to make it look like the only person he thought about was himself. im glad i loved him, and he loved me. and im glad i knew him he did good things for me. but im glad its done now. that i know what a broken heart feels like. that i know what its like to love someone and not have them love you back. what its like to have someone do things just to spite you. these are things i never knew. i never understood. now i do and it helps me better understand my friends.
Thank you for being my growing experience. but now i think its time for you to grow up.
i forgot however that being there meant being bored. wishing he'd want to do something and him always just begging for sex. constantly showing him love and never getting it back why would i miss that.
b) YES KATHERINE I WANT KITTIES!!! i want to pet and hug and cuddle little kitties all day long. after 6 works too though.
i need to learn not to displace my discontentment with myself on other situations that have gone wrong. its not anyones fault but myself that things go wrong. and im aware of this. but i wish people would realize that yes thier actions do affect others. like with him. i wish he'd realize that though hed been in love before i hadnt. so of course i didnt react perfecly i had no idea what the fuck was going on. but despite what the boy likes to make it look like the only person he thought about was himself. im glad i loved him, and he loved me. and im glad i knew him he did good things for me. but im glad its done now. that i know what a broken heart feels like. that i know what its like to love someone and not have them love you back. what its like to have someone do things just to spite you. these are things i never knew. i never understood. now i do and it helps me better understand my friends.
Thank you for being my growing experience. but now i think its time for you to grow up.