WEIRD! Approximately 15 minutes ago I just wrote something that runs very parallel to this anecdote, although my take is more self-deprecating. This is quoted from my journal:
"...I realized that I have never felt truly "bettered" by my lovers, but have always felt I have bettered them. To give a basic example, I have served as a motivation for my far less ambitious, lazy and uninspired boyfriends. But what have they TRULY done for me? I have left most relationships empty-handed...Perhaps they are just supporting actors in a giant ego trip as I seek to inadvertantly 'help' them by letting them bask in my presence, admiring my talents and feeling inspired because of them. On second thought, perhaps I am overestimating my influence."
I have noticed a similar trend - many of the women I have had relationships with have gone on to their next relationship and gotten married or stayed with that person for a long time. Almost like I trained them to have a successful relationship.
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The only comment I ever get serially is that I'm "a good sort of guy to date when you're young."
I figure this translates to mean that I'm a fun drunk but am otherwise perceived as not having my shit together...
... which is just fine with me. I'm only 25, and this is America. I'm still a teenager. I'm still in school.
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Approximately 15 minutes ago I just wrote something that runs very parallel to this anecdote, although my take is more self-deprecating. This is quoted from my journal:
"...I realized that I have never felt truly "bettered" by my lovers, but have always felt I have bettered them. To give a basic example, I have served as a motivation for my far less ambitious, lazy and uninspired boyfriends. But what have they TRULY done for me? I have left most relationships empty-handed...Perhaps they are just supporting actors in a giant ego trip as I seek to inadvertantly 'help' them by letting them bask in my presence, admiring my talents and feeling inspired because of them. On second thought, perhaps I am overestimating my influence."
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