EATING MY LIFE, Seriously, Help
Bandom has totally jumped to my fifth biggest fandom at this point. I am infatuated, for real. I want to join comms and ask for recs and shit. And hey! Possibly some of you could point my lazy ass at what I want.
I want EPIC hurt/comfort with a happy ending. And epic like long but also epic like noncon, abuse, a disability like blindness or aphasia/muteness, widower left to raise a tiny child, etc. Patrick, Brendon, or Gerard centered, because they are my favorites.
I will read them with most people, but Pete/Patrick, Bob/Patrick, Frank/Gerard, Bob/Gerard, Gerard/Mikey, Ryan/Brendon, and Brendon/Spencer are especial favorites. Oh! Also any combination of Frank/Gerard/wives and Panic ot3/gsf.
It's kind of weird, most of the bandom stories only have the relationship angst (he doesn't/won't ever love me back! he's too good for me! I can't make a move or it will fuck up the band!) even though some of these guys have hardcore shit in their pasts. It makes me wonder if it's just because people are more uncomfortable writing about true Bad Things or if it's just the "section" of bandom I read.
Or if I'm just skewed by coming from fandoms that are very much about the whumping. The Sacrifices Arc remains my perfect piece of fiction and it's pretty hardcore. Move out of HP fandom and it looks really fucking harcore.
Mmmm, Sacrifices Arc. God, I love that fic. I mean, Saving Connor, not that great, but then you hit No Mouth But Some Serpent's and that story owns me. Everything that bothered me about canon got fixed. And huge angst - character death, torture, mind control, abuse, the hero spends several books maimed - but also epic comfort, from lovers and friends and family and even respected enemies.
I want every fandom to have something like that, basically, something that epic and intricate and dense.
I want EPIC hurt/comfort with a happy ending. And epic like long but also epic like noncon, abuse, a disability like blindness or aphasia/muteness, widower left to raise a tiny child, etc. Patrick, Brendon, or Gerard centered, because they are my favorites.
I will read them with most people, but Pete/Patrick, Bob/Patrick, Frank/Gerard, Bob/Gerard, Gerard/Mikey, Ryan/Brendon, and Brendon/Spencer are especial favorites. Oh! Also any combination of Frank/Gerard/wives and Panic ot3/gsf.
It's kind of weird, most of the bandom stories only have the relationship angst (he doesn't/won't ever love me back! he's too good for me! I can't make a move or it will fuck up the band!) even though some of these guys have hardcore shit in their pasts. It makes me wonder if it's just because people are more uncomfortable writing about true Bad Things or if it's just the "section" of bandom I read.
Or if I'm just skewed by coming from fandoms that are very much about the whumping. The Sacrifices Arc remains my perfect piece of fiction and it's pretty hardcore. Move out of HP fandom and it looks really fucking harcore.
Mmmm, Sacrifices Arc. God, I love that fic. I mean, Saving Connor, not that great, but then you hit No Mouth But Some Serpent's and that story owns me. Everything that bothered me about canon got fixed. And huge angst - character death, torture, mind control, abuse, the hero spends several books maimed - but also epic comfort, from lovers and friends and family and even respected enemies.
I want every fandom to have something like that, basically, something that epic and intricate and dense.