The Choices We make and how they must affect us...
So, I havent written anything since Mark died, but to blame that on him is just nonsense. I just havent had the time. Work all day and I sleep all night ya? Daylight comin and me wann go home... Hee Hee. Well heres the sitch with me at work and relationships. Like Everyone knows how I feel about Miss Rebecca Miller, which is to say that I have feelings for her and maybe always will. I love that girl, but I have no idea how she feels for me, which is to say, Im utterly confused. A part of me just wants to say, "James your a hopeless romantic and u are just trying to see a future with her where none exists." The other is shouting, "Kiss her. Sweep her off her feet from that Idiot and kiss her...She and you both deserve better." Its so hard too, because each have an equal say in what goes on. Then the first begins to make more sense at times and the second has its fair times also. It sucks. I just want to hold her, hear her heartbeat in synch with my own, kiss her, hold her hand, talk to her forever. But these are just childhood wants, childhood needs. This is not the real deal...
Rebecca and I have known each other for over 2 years and wil be approaching our third year pretty soon. I have known her longer then Joe, HD, Jacque, Jorge, Shawna, and many others and yet what do I know about her. Have I ever been in her house? Have I ever metr her parents, have ever just had her over to talk? No, and its not becuase of lack of effort. I dont know, I really just want to keep her forever, and yet I know that Im going to have to let her go.
Then what will Jamsey Pooperz do then? Well, Im glad you asked. See, the last couple of weeks from my job, I have been getting to know a beatiful young woman named Ashley Tompson. She has stunning eyes, is almost to my height and is a good guard. She seems to be kinda interested in me, but I dont know for sure. I want to ask her out, and almost did, but well, circumstances changed that plan. See yesterday (Sunday) I made plans to go to the movies with my friends to see Troy. I owed Nathan for a favor and thus I bought him a ticket to the show. It was a good movie. But that comes later. I really wanted to ask Ashley to the movie being that she loves movies and I like her a lot. So I saw her on both her breaks and talked a little (She wanted to know where I have been lately being that it was the first time I'd seen her in over a week... She noticed!) and I was planning on asking her to go when she got off. Well, right as the girl got off, a 3 was blown and Monique was nowhere in sight. So James had to run up and answer it and give Chad Poole a Bathroom break. I gave him 3 mins to do it, which he took and got back pretty close to 3 mins, but by the time I got back to the mat room... she was gone. Damnit... Well, Im over it cause that just means Im going to have to see the movie again next weekend in order to win her over. While I like her a lot, I know that I will not be totaly crushed if she says no. I will be a little hurt, but I will move on. Damn though I do like this girl.
Life is a series of choices, and what we do with our lives, and the chances that we take determine who we are and what we become. Sometimes there is no right choice and sometimes you cannot go wrong with one, but one thing remains constant. Choices lead to eventual conclusions and you must always be ready for the wrong choice to blow up in your face. "Its not always easy, and its not always kind... Did you ever have to make up your mind"
- Raving of a mad man...
Be sure to sign this and give James good advice. I always admire it when you do.
Rebecca and I have known each other for over 2 years and wil be approaching our third year pretty soon. I have known her longer then Joe, HD, Jacque, Jorge, Shawna, and many others and yet what do I know about her. Have I ever been in her house? Have I ever metr her parents, have ever just had her over to talk? No, and its not becuase of lack of effort. I dont know, I really just want to keep her forever, and yet I know that Im going to have to let her go.
Then what will Jamsey Pooperz do then? Well, Im glad you asked. See, the last couple of weeks from my job, I have been getting to know a beatiful young woman named Ashley Tompson. She has stunning eyes, is almost to my height and is a good guard. She seems to be kinda interested in me, but I dont know for sure. I want to ask her out, and almost did, but well, circumstances changed that plan. See yesterday (Sunday) I made plans to go to the movies with my friends to see Troy. I owed Nathan for a favor and thus I bought him a ticket to the show. It was a good movie. But that comes later. I really wanted to ask Ashley to the movie being that she loves movies and I like her a lot. So I saw her on both her breaks and talked a little (She wanted to know where I have been lately being that it was the first time I'd seen her in over a week... She noticed!) and I was planning on asking her to go when she got off. Well, right as the girl got off, a 3 was blown and Monique was nowhere in sight. So James had to run up and answer it and give Chad Poole a Bathroom break. I gave him 3 mins to do it, which he took and got back pretty close to 3 mins, but by the time I got back to the mat room... she was gone. Damnit... Well, Im over it cause that just means Im going to have to see the movie again next weekend in order to win her over. While I like her a lot, I know that I will not be totaly crushed if she says no. I will be a little hurt, but I will move on. Damn though I do like this girl.
Life is a series of choices, and what we do with our lives, and the chances that we take determine who we are and what we become. Sometimes there is no right choice and sometimes you cannot go wrong with one, but one thing remains constant. Choices lead to eventual conclusions and you must always be ready for the wrong choice to blow up in your face. "Its not always easy, and its not always kind... Did you ever have to make up your mind"
- Raving of a mad man...
Be sure to sign this and give James good advice. I always admire it when you do.