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The only true knowledge is in knowing that you know nothing.
I feel like I've forgotten that recently. I think I know what's best for everyone else, but I've forgotten that I actually know nothing at all. That's the only real truth. It's tough being me, because my logic is always in conflict with my natural instincts.
I've lost alot of sleep recently. I've got insomnia. But not so bad that I can't sleep at all. It's just that I end up staying up late because I simply can't sleep. So I lose sleep, feel like shit all the time, and end up not doing my homework because I'm too sleepy to focus on anything. This has been going on for several weeks now.
I've also been having many more dreams recently. But they're not dreams. They're nightmares. Nightmares that I know I shouldn't be having. That might be one of the reasons I can't sleep.
I guess it's not all bad though. I've managed to do well in all my tests and essays and shit. Even though I'm virtually exhausted all the time, I've kept my grades from slipping. I've always been able to do everything I absolutely NEED to do, even if I'm not at my best, simply because I'm that type of person.
But in other news, I finished the books I was reading, and I was really pleased with them. I love fantasy books. I love being taken to another world entirely. That's part of the reason I write stories... but I can never write them fast enough, so my mind keeps going, and I lose focus.. and I never finish any of my stories. I've LITERALLY started hundreds of different stories, each with a different plot, but I've never finished because my mind always comes up with a better story, or a different one, or a cooler one. Some of them that I've started have been pretty long too, taking at least 30 minutes to an hour to read entirely. But they're all unfinished. Sad, isn't it? Some were deleted too.
Do you ever feel like you've got something to do, but you can't remember exactly what it is? I get that feeling alot lately. It's really weird. It's like something is wrong with me, and I can't explain what it is. Damn. I'm just really nervous all the time. Why can't I seem to calm down?!
Anyway, I've got stuff to do. Hopefully, I can get this all done before 3 am. If not, it'll be a groggy morning for me again.
I feel like I've forgotten that recently. I think I know what's best for everyone else, but I've forgotten that I actually know nothing at all. That's the only real truth. It's tough being me, because my logic is always in conflict with my natural instincts.
I've lost alot of sleep recently. I've got insomnia. But not so bad that I can't sleep at all. It's just that I end up staying up late because I simply can't sleep. So I lose sleep, feel like shit all the time, and end up not doing my homework because I'm too sleepy to focus on anything. This has been going on for several weeks now.
I've also been having many more dreams recently. But they're not dreams. They're nightmares. Nightmares that I know I shouldn't be having. That might be one of the reasons I can't sleep.
I guess it's not all bad though. I've managed to do well in all my tests and essays and shit. Even though I'm virtually exhausted all the time, I've kept my grades from slipping. I've always been able to do everything I absolutely NEED to do, even if I'm not at my best, simply because I'm that type of person.
But in other news, I finished the books I was reading, and I was really pleased with them. I love fantasy books. I love being taken to another world entirely. That's part of the reason I write stories... but I can never write them fast enough, so my mind keeps going, and I lose focus.. and I never finish any of my stories. I've LITERALLY started hundreds of different stories, each with a different plot, but I've never finished because my mind always comes up with a better story, or a different one, or a cooler one. Some of them that I've started have been pretty long too, taking at least 30 minutes to an hour to read entirely. But they're all unfinished. Sad, isn't it? Some were deleted too.
Do you ever feel like you've got something to do, but you can't remember exactly what it is? I get that feeling alot lately. It's really weird. It's like something is wrong with me, and I can't explain what it is. Damn. I'm just really nervous all the time. Why can't I seem to calm down?!
Anyway, I've got stuff to do. Hopefully, I can get this all done before 3 am. If not, it'll be a groggy morning for me again.