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The day ended with one less stress. I feel like I could say the boy and I are okay right now. He called and asked if I wanted to hang out... and despite my every intention of not seeing him tonight, I agreed to go on over. I'll only have 4 1/2 hours, if that, of sleep right now... but at least, I feel more comfortable about our status. I thought about telling him I didn't want to... but I realized that if he wanted me over, and if we're okay... my telling him why I didn't want to might have made things weird again. I really hope things stay okay. We've gotta learn how to let things bounce off the back. No sense in keeping the weight of the world...
I'm trying not to feel too stupid for feeling weird about it earlier today and yesterday. I think it was the sense of dread that really killed me. Considering how I've reacted about things in the past, and not even with him, I might say I did kind of decently with containing myself today. I didn't entirely lose myself.
Now, I'm left in need of a job/money. One step at a time, I guess.
Homework! There's that, too.
I need to pray. I'm realizing just how often I forget God.
I'm trying not to feel too stupid for feeling weird about it earlier today and yesterday. I think it was the sense of dread that really killed me. Considering how I've reacted about things in the past, and not even with him, I might say I did kind of decently with containing myself today. I didn't entirely lose myself.
Now, I'm left in need of a job/money. One step at a time, I guess.
Homework! There's that, too.
I need to pray. I'm realizing just how often I forget God.