Continued from Rewind's Post

[streetpatrol]

 ((one of these days I'll learn to link...))

"Oh slag...

Y-you saw something about you? W-what did you see? I... I cant usually control what's shown, and usually I dont need to... umm...

*Rewind looked away, knowing all too well what Streetwise might have seen in his mind, and a little afraid of how he might react*

this is... a little awkward"

*He rubs

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[trivia_bot]

I... uh... oO(Frag, this was awkward)... I...

Well this would be easier if you told me what you saw..

And I think you're... nice... I mean... you're a nice mech, and I like you... and yeah... I like you...

*Rewind drew his legs up and hugged his knees to his chest, feeling very embarrassed, his faceplates burning as he waited for some kind of humiliating remark... some of this probably went over their linked connection to Streetwise*

[streetpatrol]

I saw...well...*shrugs, figuring the easiest way is just to come out and say it.* You...wanting t' see me. As a lover.

*He can feel the embarrassment and sends a soothing buzz through the link, not wanting him to feel humiliated at an emotion.*

[trivia_bot]

Oh... you saw that one huh? Well... I dont know what else to say, I mean it's there, and I'm not denying its there...

*He's a little comforted by the buzz and he chances a look at Streetwise*

I dont know what to say, Streets... what... what else did you see in there?

[streetpatrol]

*He can feel a small flush on his cheeks, accepting the words for what they were.*

Well...I saw other stuff. Mostly 'bout your family. You're a good brother, y'know...you look out for them. They're lucky t' have you. And...I saw you were lonely.

How could you think no one would want you? There's nothin' wrong with you, 'Wind!

[trivia_bot]

Thanks... they're all I've got... I have to.

*He let out a bit of a hollow laugh*

taken a look at me lately?

I'm... small, Streetwise. I'm just a little taller than a human, look... *he stood and only just reached Streets' seated height*... I'm lucky if anyone outside my family even notices me.

And it does get lonely. I... I have these feelings... that if only someone could see me, and accept me as I am, there's alot I could give back. Sometimes I feel like my family's not enough, like I still have more that I'd like to give to someone...

But... no one wants it. No one even knows it's there...

[streetpatrol]

*Frowns and shakes his head.* No, man...size doesn't have anything to do with it. If someone can't get over that, they're not worth your time anyway. You an' your bros...you don't open up a lot t' other people. Slag, I don't know why you opened up to me...but I'm glad you did. I'm glad t' be able to call you my friend.

*Sighs* Someone will want it...they'll know it's there...I know it's there. Open up t' someone you want...and maybe they'll want you too.

[trivia_bot]

I know we dont, but it's how we get by. Three out of the four of us - we're not fighters Streets. I mean, look at what happened to Steeljaw after he tried to come out into the open a little more. He gets kidnapped and tortured by some Decepticon.

It doesnt matter what we do, we're always going to be seen as the little guys that everyone doesnt mind being friends with, but no one really wants to get close to. *Rewind felt his spark sink a little*...

I did, Streets... I did open up to someone, and it's not really worked since the other doesnt really seem to want me back.

*His hands went to the cables still linking them, wanting to disconnect before he let anymore feelings slip through that would only serve to humiliate him further.*

[streetpatrol]

*Sigh* Slag, 'Wind...it's not because 'Jaw opened up that he got taken. By opening up and makin' friends he just had more people rallying for his rescue. You're not always gonna be the 'little guys,' I don't even know where you came up with that slag. Truth is, you have abilities we don't. You're just as valuable as anyone else on base

[trivia_bot]

*Rewind sighed* And yet, when I wanted to go along on my own brother's rescue, couple of them actually wanted me to remain on base 'cause they thought I was just going to be the little guy in the way.

Maybe I am looking for love, I dont know... And I dont know if I'm ever going to find it. I dont want to wait centuries for someone who's probably never going to show up, and end up missing out on... other things

[streetpatrol]

No, 'Wind...we were afraid your emotions might get in the way, not you! If it were 'Aid out there, I know I'd be a fragging mess!

*He frowns at the rest of Rewind's words, allowing him to move away. He stares at the ground, actually hurt by what was being said. Did Rewind think so little of him?*

You're wrong...I can't have anyone I want. And...I wish y' didn't think like that. The rest of us aren't your enemies...I'M not your enemy, 'Wind! If someone had my spark, I wouldn't be offering myself t' someone else, cassette or not. You're nothin' t' be ashamed of...I felt honored when I saw what you felt for me. Humbled...

*Doesn't look at him, voice betraying his hurt.* Take advantage of you...? Enemy...? Slaggit...I thought we were friends at least! Do you really think so little of me?!

*Fists clench as he goes silent.* I...I'm slagging sorry if my offer insulted you, ok?! Primus...

[trivia_bot]

No! Streets, I... that wasnt what I meant at all. You got me wrong, and it serves me right for rambling like that.

*Rewind took a step closer again, glowing a little brighter as he cleared more data so he could get his thoughts together*

I was talking about size... physical size... in that if I ever wanted to have a relationship with someone my own size, it would either have to be with one of my own brothers, or with Rumble or Frenzy. That's what I meant when I said 'enemy'. I wasnt referring to you at all, Streets.

I wouldnt... be having these feelings for you if I thought you were my enemy, or thought so little of you.

And taking advantage... *he looked at him*... not all Autobots have noble intentions either, you know it. If someone like Sunstreaker or Mirage wanted to, y'know, do anything, me being what I am, I'd be a little hard-pressed to fight them off.

That's what I meant... *he sank to his knees, thoroughly dejected* I'm sorry

Streets... I... I can't lose you. If something ever happens to my family - Steeljaw, Blaster

[streetpatrol]

*Nods in understanding, feeling a little better when Rewind clears it up. He still doesn't look at him, trying to sort out his thoughts so he doesn't say anything stupid and make it worse.*

*quietly* If anyone touched you without your say-so, all you had t' do is call me or anyone else you trust...we'd come for you and make Mirage or Sunstreaker or whoever sorry they were ever spawned.

*Sighs and does look over at him, expression softening when he sees how unhappy the other is.* You won't lose me, 'Wind...Aside from my brothers, you an' 'Raid are my best friends. Y' mean a lot t' me and to the Pit with 'small size.'

[trivia_bot]

*Rewind's voice was quiet when he spoke again*

I can't help my feelings Streets... I dont know what to do anymore. It's just, you're the only one outside of my family to really notice me. I dont mean to make you feel uncomfortable or anything...

*He sighed sadly*

[streetpatrol]

No, 'Wind, I don't want you sorry for anything. You didn't make me uncomfortable...heh, made me feel honored really...that you'd think of me like that.

And...my offer stands. If this is what you want, I'm your mech. But...it's not love on my end. Not yet. *His smile is more gentle, wanting to make him feel better, any way he could.* And if you wanna forget it, I wont' mention it again.

[trivia_bot]

Hon.. honored? why?

I'm not sure... I dont even know what I'm supposed to be feeling right now. It's all jumbled up - love, lust, and everything from before with Jaw and all we went through...

*His glow starts to slowly dim and fade*

[streetpatrol]

Cause...cause I think you're a great mech. An' if someone I respect thinks I'm worth that much...it makes me feel good y'know?

*He moves to lay down on his back, hands folded behind his head as he looks up at the stars. He's glad the glowing is going down...it must mean that he's feeling better.*

Not sayin' you have to decide now. Recharge. Things'll seem clearer in the morning right? *smiles over at him*