Continued from Rewind's Post

[streetpatrol]

 ((one of these days I'll learn to link...))

"Oh slag...

Y-you saw something about you? W-what did you see? I... I cant usually control what's shown, and usually I dont need to... umm...

*Rewind looked away, knowing all too well what Streetwise might have seen in his mind, and a little afraid of how he might react*

this is... a little awkward"

*He rubs

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[streetpatrol]

*Sigh* Slag, 'Wind...it's not because 'Jaw opened up that he got taken. By opening up and makin' friends he just had more people rallying for his rescue. You're not always gonna be the 'little guys,' I don't even know where you came up with that slag. Truth is, you have abilities we don't. You're just as valuable as anyone else on base.

*He looks him over intently, studying. Streetwise is a mech who takes life as it comes, lives in the moment, moves on from action to action without ties or regrets. But...not everyone is like that. Rewind isn't like that. The Protectobot could do this without losing himself in the process, but it's only fair to offer things straight. The last thing he wanted was to lose one of his best friendships over something like lust.*

I...I didn't say I couldn't sleep with you, 'Wind. If that's what you want, and you think you could be lovers as well as friends...slag I'm willing to give it a try. But I just want you to know up front...my spark...it's not yours. Not saying it can't ever be...but it's not right now. If this is something that you want...*gently strokes the cassette's cable*...I can do that. If it's love you want...I'm not your mech.

[trivia_bot]

*Rewind sighed* And yet, when I wanted to go along on my own brother's rescue, couple of them actually wanted me to remain on base 'cause they thought I was just going to be the little guy in the way.

Maybe I am looking for love, I dont know... And I dont know if I'm ever going to find it. I dont want to wait centuries for someone who's probably never going to show up, and end up missing out on... other things.

*He shivered a bit when their hands brushed and Streetwise touched the transfer cable, but he stopped himself from acting on the impulse that crept up his back. Instead, he moved to disconnect them, and stepped back*

I'm messing this up, arent I? It's hard Streets... I mean, you being you, can have anyone you want to have. Maybe its silly to look at compatible sizes when it comes to love, but that's the reality of it, and when it comes to me, I dont really have any kind of choice - its either my brother or the enemy.

*Primus, but Rewind was just scared of ruining everything. He didnt want to do anything on impulse right now and then live to regret it, and he knew he still wasnt right after everything that had happened the last few days - but it a way, it was also a harsh reminder that when his family was out of the picture, he really did have no one to go to for love or comfort.*

I'm a fool arent I? Wanting something I cant have... *He sat back down again* Maybe you shouldnt... I mean, I dont think whoever has your spark will be too happy to know you slept with a naive little Cassette... oO(Great, now I'm babbling)... It's not something you'd want to brag about, I mean, we're probably the easiest to take advantage of, if someone wanted to. Not like we can fight them off... oO(Primus, Rewind! Stop talking before you say something stupid!!)

*He snapped his mouth shut and fell silent, his body starting to glow slightly as his processor hurried to convert some data into burnable energy before he ended up with another headache. The energy transferred to his light-matrix that made him glow with a soft light*

[streetpatrol]

No, 'Wind...we were afraid your emotions might get in the way, not you! If it were 'Aid out there, I know I'd be a fragging mess!

*He frowns at the rest of Rewind's words, allowing him to move away. He stares at the ground, actually hurt by what was being said. Did Rewind think so little of him?*

You're wrong...I can't have anyone I want. And...I wish y' didn't think like that. The rest of us aren't your enemies...I'M not your enemy, 'Wind! If someone had my spark, I wouldn't be offering myself t' someone else, cassette or not. You're nothin' t' be ashamed of...I felt honored when I saw what you felt for me. Humbled...

*Doesn't look at him, voice betraying his hurt.* Take advantage of you...? Enemy...? Slaggit...I thought we were friends at least! Do you really think so little of me?!

*Fists clench as he goes silent.* I...I'm slagging sorry if my offer insulted you, ok?! Primus...

[trivia_bot]

No! Streets, I... that wasnt what I meant at all. You got me wrong, and it serves me right for rambling like that.

*Rewind took a step closer again, glowing a little brighter as he cleared more data so he could get his thoughts together*

I was talking about size... physical size... in that if I ever wanted to have a relationship with someone my own size, it would either have to be with one of my own brothers, or with Rumble or Frenzy. That's what I meant when I said 'enemy'. I wasnt referring to you at all, Streets.

I wouldnt... be having these feelings for you if I thought you were my enemy, or thought so little of you.

And taking advantage... *he looked at him*... not all Autobots have noble intentions either, you know it. If someone like Sunstreaker or Mirage wanted to, y'know, do anything, me being what I am, I'd be a little hard-pressed to fight them off.

That's what I meant... *he sank to his knees, thoroughly dejected* I'm sorry

Streets... I... I can't lose you. If something ever happens to my family - Steeljaw, Blaster... you're the only one I have when they're not around...

[streetpatrol]

*Nods in understanding, feeling a little better when Rewind clears it up. He still doesn't look at him, trying to sort out his thoughts so he doesn't say anything stupid and make it worse.*

*quietly* If anyone touched you without your say-so, all you had t' do is call me or anyone else you trust...we'd come for you and make Mirage or Sunstreaker or whoever sorry they were ever spawned.

*Sighs and does look over at him, expression softening when he sees how unhappy the other is.* You won't lose me, 'Wind...Aside from my brothers, you an' 'Raid are my best friends. Y' mean a lot t' me and to the Pit with 'small size.'

[trivia_bot]

*Rewind's voice was quiet when he spoke again*

I can't help my feelings Streets... I dont know what to do anymore. It's just, you're the only one outside of my family to really notice me. I dont mean to make you feel uncomfortable or anything...

*He sighed sadly*

[streetpatrol]

No, 'Wind, I don't want you sorry for anything. You didn't make me uncomfortable...heh, made me feel honored really...that you'd think of me like that.

And...my offer stands. If this is what you want, I'm your mech. But...it's not love on my end. Not yet. *His smile is more gentle, wanting to make him feel better, any way he could.* And if you wanna forget it, I wont' mention it again.

[trivia_bot]

Hon.. honored? why?

I'm not sure... I dont even know what I'm supposed to be feeling right now. It's all jumbled up - love, lust, and everything from before with Jaw and all we went through...

*His glow starts to slowly dim and fade*

[streetpatrol]

Cause...cause I think you're a great mech. An' if someone I respect thinks I'm worth that much...it makes me feel good y'know?

*He moves to lay down on his back, hands folded behind his head as he looks up at the stars. He's glad the glowing is going down...it must mean that he's feeling better.*

Not sayin' you have to decide now. Recharge. Things'll seem clearer in the morning right? *smiles over at him*

[trivia_bot]

Right... *Primus willing he'd be able to think straight again in the morning*

Could I... come a little closer? Is it okay?

[streetpatrol]

*Nods and smiles more, glad his friend doesn't want to just stay away due to this.* Whatever you want, 'Wind. 'm here for you. Remember that, ok?