So screw the last entry...
ok for real this time i am going to california, tickets are bought and everything...it is really confusing but he basically just said it was only the money however he really did want me to go (almost to the point of begging which was a plus)so with much diliberation i decided to go....who knows why you think i would learn by now but.... Thank you everyone who was there for me! I love you so much and u dont even know how much i appreciate everything! I love every single one of you! This may happen again in like 3 weeks however i do not want any sympathy that time because then it will be my fault and only my fault but then again it could end up being the best deciion of my life who knows? Thanks again everyone and im sorry everything is so confusing trust me i wish it was simpler! Love you!