i hate this.
i know all my entries are about guys and it's really lame. and i promise, eventually i'll talk about something more relevant. but right now, i'm just so frustrated. i hate eric for telling me all this stuff about "how he feels". i mean, i wanted to know.. and i guess i'm better off knowing, but..UGH. i want him. i really do. i'm not ready to give him up. i just don't want to. he always says that he likes competitive girls. does he want me to fight for him?? probably not.. but wtf. maybe??
and then justin messaged me on myspace and told me he wanted to hang out again. :) and he gave me his screename. that made me happy. but the thing is.. im leaving in like 2 weeks for a month. and hten after that, he's gunna be at kent state. hm. like wtf? maybe we can date? like openly. but the problem is. who else would i date?! wtf. there's no one here. the only one i want at this school is eric. and i can't have him. god damn. this is really frustrating. i can't get over it. why does this shitty stuff always happen to me? seriously? i really want to know. god damn. fuckkkkkkkkk.
and then justin messaged me on myspace and told me he wanted to hang out again. :) and he gave me his screename. that made me happy. but the thing is.. im leaving in like 2 weeks for a month. and hten after that, he's gunna be at kent state. hm. like wtf? maybe we can date? like openly. but the problem is. who else would i date?! wtf. there's no one here. the only one i want at this school is eric. and i can't have him. god damn. this is really frustrating. i can't get over it. why does this shitty stuff always happen to me? seriously? i really want to know. god damn. fuckkkkkkkkk.