Nov 29, 2004 18:19
thanksgiving was not as bad as i feared it would be. the relatives were all fairly civil to each other during dinner, i actually talked to my aunt victoria and her husband did neccessarily work so hard at ignoring me like he usually does. it was kinda sad, though, cuz uncle todd's parents are divorcing...there in there 60's or even older. i cant understand why u would divorce at that age..uve had the kids, they're out of the house and there are no major fights..except about money, which is what they were arguing about...something about taxes that he filed incorrectly millions of years ago and lost the house millions of years ago...if u stuck with them through it..why get mad now...it seems silly, but im not married. anyway...thanksgiving dinner was cool, my pumpkin pie from scratch (yes from whole pumpkins, not canned) was a hit, turkey wasnt too dry, stuffing was decent, but most importantly, there were no major fights and grandma never once said a harsh word to me. the next day i got to babysit luke while tia and todd went to pick up their new miny cooper, grandma taught me to finish a crocheted blanket with a decorative edge and she was actually able to use the needle, she is doing so well since her stroke. im sure that she will be back at home in a few months. went up to sacremento on saturday to take grandma back to tia barbara's and had a good time there, despite spending most of the time reading Memoirs of a Geisha (amazing book!). We had dinner at the Chili's in their area and i got stuck sitting at the end, so i was sticking out in to the walkway...but whatever, the food was decent. came back late despite ba's wanting to stay in elk grove. we talked for a while on the way home about different things and im glad for it...he always tells me the truth..whether i want to hear it or not. talked to mom for a little bit that day, mostly to tell her that i had finally bought my ticket to greece and to tell giagia and papou. she went on about me puttin up the tree while i was there and getting papou a cake for his birthday...december 20..im not even sure how old he will be..probably 70 or something near that...sunday morning i went over to daniel's and his mom and i and him went to ikea to pick up his bed. i feel bad for spending so much time over there when it was my dad's last day in san jo before leaving...why do i always feel so bad when he leaves....yes i love him and i miss him when he's gone, but its not like he's living in Ne with mom and nick..i always feel guilty when he's around for spending time with daniel...then i end up feeling like i spent too much time with daniel and not enough with ba. its almost never the other way around..i never feel like i spend too much time with my dad and not enough with daniel. and i have no idea why i feel guilty, my dad just watches tv or drives around...he doesnt really spend time with me. sometimes its hard to talk to him, i get the feeling he doesnt like to talk too much about anything remotely personal..but when he does listen to me and actually say something back...its usually brilliant and worth listening to...maybe thats just his way, talk little, but when u do speak, make sure its something worth hearing.