Too busy to be journaling
Im in one of those moods where I feel extremely motivated and ready to get things done. I have lots of stuff to do, so many books Ive picked up and half-read and then before I finished them picked up another book thinking I would be able to handle the whole 2 books at once thing. So now I have myself about 5 half read books to read.
More things on my agenda-
- start/finish painting due thursday
- make some progress on the mural
- return library books because i have a 5+ $ fine [ highest fine I've ever had ]
- complete my works cited
- finish book for research paper
- re-learn how to make hemp necklaces and bracelets and shit
- watch the "Meet your Meat" video Eric gave me
- contemplate vegetarianism
- clean my room
- look into building a piece of furniture? [ just think it'd be interesting]
- learn the cycles of the moon
- update portfolio
- have a well overdue meeting of the minds with my fellow thinkers
- take a bubble bath
- begin forming my garden/put some plants in my room
- cut my hair
- actually get done with amanda and lindseys mix cd! shit
damn look at that list.
about being a vegetarian........I just dont know. I have a respect for animals that I'd like to grow deeper. But I was thinking today..... lauren told me not to be a vegetarian my whole life......but whats the point of not being one your whole life? Is your passion about animal rights just going to have to dissapear so that you'll eventually be an ordinary citizen and dig into a steak at outback....I dont know. what Im just trying to think about and figure out is can you have a sincere respect and I guess a "soul" bond with animals and still eat them? Another thing I found kinda crazy was that today I was talking to brodie about this animal rights meeting on friday and he said I could go but that they might make fun of me for eating meat. to me this sounds ridiculous. I want to go to meet interesting people and hear their reasons for becoming vegetarians and involved with this stuff. personally I think it'd be worse to jump on the vegetarian bandwagon than to think things over for yourself and do a little research before you get serious. yeah enough about that
Ive been trying to control my dreams lately/successfully accomplish lucid dreaming and its just crazy. when i get to the point where I realize Im dreaming in my dream and I get excited I wake up and start getting frustrated. Once I get done with all the books Im finishing, I want to start studying in depth about dreams......like reading about experiments and sleep lab reports and such. From what i believe right now, there is so much in our brain to be accessed... there are many ways to do this, including psychedelics and other assorted sacraments, but I also think dreams contain alot of unknowns in the complex brain of ours.
I probably sound kinda crazy but this stuff intrigues me like no other. I think it all started when It was driving me crazy wondering where all the memories from my first couple of years of my life went to. I know its still in my head, and occasionally I'll remember a small clip from when I was sitting in a sandbox or anything smalll like that.... Ive read books about people who have been hit by lightning and could suddenly remember all sorts of stuff from 1-6 years of age......some stuff that was really cool to remember and others not. one memory a man had was of when he was an infant getting surgery, the doctors at that time were unsure of how much anesthetic to give an infant, and with the knowlege that people usually dont remember this time in their life, they operated with very little. the man remembered the excruciating pain of the surgery, which kinda haunted him . I cant really decide if I think that guy was crazy or not though. because the book was about remote viewing and I never finished it to find out if I could actually do it. Im not even going to go into that stuff way too complicated.
haha, this entry is awesome. its basically a conversation with myself, which is probably the most insightful out of any style of journal writing. Its kind of hard to communicate what Im thinking and still sound rational to people who are reading this, cause if you think about it, Its taking all these thoughts out of context. so i guess.....basically if you dont know me this shouldnt make any sense? but maybe not....because I think most people share a common channel of thinking.
I really wish it wasnt 11:15pm and everyone asleep cause Its definitely time for a good conversation about weird yet intriguing shit.
More things on my agenda-
- start/finish painting due thursday
- make some progress on the mural
- return library books because i have a 5+ $ fine [ highest fine I've ever had ]
- complete my works cited
- finish book for research paper
- re-learn how to make hemp necklaces and bracelets and shit
- watch the "Meet your Meat" video Eric gave me
- contemplate vegetarianism
- clean my room
- look into building a piece of furniture? [ just think it'd be interesting]
- learn the cycles of the moon
- update portfolio
- have a well overdue meeting of the minds with my fellow thinkers
- take a bubble bath
- begin forming my garden/put some plants in my room
- cut my hair
- actually get done with amanda and lindseys mix cd! shit
damn look at that list.
about being a vegetarian........I just dont know. I have a respect for animals that I'd like to grow deeper. But I was thinking today..... lauren told me not to be a vegetarian my whole life......but whats the point of not being one your whole life? Is your passion about animal rights just going to have to dissapear so that you'll eventually be an ordinary citizen and dig into a steak at outback....I dont know. what Im just trying to think about and figure out is can you have a sincere respect and I guess a "soul" bond with animals and still eat them? Another thing I found kinda crazy was that today I was talking to brodie about this animal rights meeting on friday and he said I could go but that they might make fun of me for eating meat. to me this sounds ridiculous. I want to go to meet interesting people and hear their reasons for becoming vegetarians and involved with this stuff. personally I think it'd be worse to jump on the vegetarian bandwagon than to think things over for yourself and do a little research before you get serious. yeah enough about that
Ive been trying to control my dreams lately/successfully accomplish lucid dreaming and its just crazy. when i get to the point where I realize Im dreaming in my dream and I get excited I wake up and start getting frustrated. Once I get done with all the books Im finishing, I want to start studying in depth about dreams......like reading about experiments and sleep lab reports and such. From what i believe right now, there is so much in our brain to be accessed... there are many ways to do this, including psychedelics and other assorted sacraments, but I also think dreams contain alot of unknowns in the complex brain of ours.
I probably sound kinda crazy but this stuff intrigues me like no other. I think it all started when It was driving me crazy wondering where all the memories from my first couple of years of my life went to. I know its still in my head, and occasionally I'll remember a small clip from when I was sitting in a sandbox or anything smalll like that.... Ive read books about people who have been hit by lightning and could suddenly remember all sorts of stuff from 1-6 years of age......some stuff that was really cool to remember and others not. one memory a man had was of when he was an infant getting surgery, the doctors at that time were unsure of how much anesthetic to give an infant, and with the knowlege that people usually dont remember this time in their life, they operated with very little. the man remembered the excruciating pain of the surgery, which kinda haunted him . I cant really decide if I think that guy was crazy or not though. because the book was about remote viewing and I never finished it to find out if I could actually do it. Im not even going to go into that stuff way too complicated.
haha, this entry is awesome. its basically a conversation with myself, which is probably the most insightful out of any style of journal writing. Its kind of hard to communicate what Im thinking and still sound rational to people who are reading this, cause if you think about it, Its taking all these thoughts out of context. so i guess.....basically if you dont know me this shouldnt make any sense? but maybe not....because I think most people share a common channel of thinking.
I really wish it wasnt 11:15pm and everyone asleep cause Its definitely time for a good conversation about weird yet intriguing shit.