"This is way beyond pissed..."
last night was decidedly one of the worst i've had in quite a while. no nothing horrible and heartwrenching and utterly awful last night in the grand scheme of things BUT thats how it felt in the microcosm of my life. I will be leaving to visit family for the next 6 days in Indiana, outside of Chicago, (i can certaily sympathize with the going away a certain kristen nicole graves had to do) which is not a vacation as some members of my family have tried to convince me, no no it is certainly an obligation at best, a sentence at worst. I know its justified when even my mom came up to me and said i feel bad for you steph, here's some money to make it a little better... So back to last night, i wanted to go out last night more than i have in weeks, maybe months because i rationalized if i could have a really fun night then, maybe, just maybe, i could spread that little bit of happy attitude very thinly over the next week, so as to not drive myself crazy. Unfortunately as Jess put it, karma was not on my side, and the world was closed last night. Nobody would/could hang out*. So i did what any desperate person does, and felt sorry for myself and began to hate things, people, places, jessica's headache and so on. Needless to say that ended in a delightful fuck the world attitude, and my subsequent away message of simply: FUCK
*i will note that i did recieve a call late-ish by whom i'm assuming is Doug since he said he would call, unfortunately my parents are quasi-nazis and don't let me out that late if i'm not already out & about.
*i will note that i did recieve a call late-ish by whom i'm assuming is Doug since he said he would call, unfortunately my parents are quasi-nazis and don't let me out that late if i'm not already out & about.