"Oh, it's a spot I haven't kissed yet."
At this point I am desperately trying not to debase myself by finding solace in the arms of which ever man will have me, physically, because there is only one who's arms I truly want to be in.
And that hurts.
I am attempting to bring back that confidence. I want to regain that feeling of not needing love; that feeling of not wanting to be with another person so much that it hurts.
But it's not working. I guess at this point I have no choice but to continue to do what I can to heal and get back to a safe place.
Even though right now it seems a long way off.
EVERYTHING...
every song,
every saying,
every thought,
every memory,
every moment... brings pain.
Physical pain. That dull, sching pain that lasts for ONE MILLION YEARS after someone informs you that they don't love you anymore. And who knows how long it will last this time, because for the first time, I truly loved. I loved completely and unconditionally.
"We only hurt the ones we love."
And that hurts.
I am attempting to bring back that confidence. I want to regain that feeling of not needing love; that feeling of not wanting to be with another person so much that it hurts.
But it's not working. I guess at this point I have no choice but to continue to do what I can to heal and get back to a safe place.
Even though right now it seems a long way off.
EVERYTHING...
every song,
every saying,
every thought,
every memory,
every moment... brings pain.
Physical pain. That dull, sching pain that lasts for ONE MILLION YEARS after someone informs you that they don't love you anymore. And who knows how long it will last this time, because for the first time, I truly loved. I loved completely and unconditionally.
"We only hurt the ones we love."