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Why do you always ask why when you don't truly want to know?
And then even though you expected the pain to come with the exlanation, it still hurts like nothing else. Ever.
I'm tired. I am so fucking tired. I have never loved as much as I have loved, as much as I expended on Lonnie. Never.
As sad as that is.
And why am I not as good as she is? Why was I not good enough for him to step up and stand up to his father?
And now he is going to be spending time with her. And in my heart, he's still mine. And fuck, it hurts so fucking much. SO FUCKING MUCH.
IT HURTS. MAKE IT STOP. IT FUCKING HURTS.
And then even though you expected the pain to come with the exlanation, it still hurts like nothing else. Ever.
I'm tired. I am so fucking tired. I have never loved as much as I have loved, as much as I expended on Lonnie. Never.
As sad as that is.
And why am I not as good as she is? Why was I not good enough for him to step up and stand up to his father?
And now he is going to be spending time with her. And in my heart, he's still mine. And fuck, it hurts so fucking much. SO FUCKING MUCH.
IT HURTS. MAKE IT STOP. IT FUCKING HURTS.