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ppl cleared out of my place past 5AM saturday night/sunday morning. good times. and the place was surprisingly clean.
megan and i are offical.
she spent the night and most of today over. we spent most of the time being infatuated with each other. the honeymoon is nice. all sex and laughing. just like i wanted. perfect, right? yeh... except... i dunno. something's not quite right. i can't put my finger on it yet, but there's something fundamental missing. something about our vibe together - like, the rhythm of the relationship. i feel like i'm being rushed. kinda. but it's not really "moving too fast" or anything. like, in terms of the progress of the relationship as compared to time, i think we're pacin' it pretty good. so the "rushed" part is something else, somewhere else. spending last night and today with her was really great, but i was kinda released from something internally constricting when she left today. it's not her though, it's me. i really should get that figured out by the next time i see her.
i got free tickets to a raptor game tomorrow.
megan and i are offical.
she spent the night and most of today over. we spent most of the time being infatuated with each other. the honeymoon is nice. all sex and laughing. just like i wanted. perfect, right? yeh... except... i dunno. something's not quite right. i can't put my finger on it yet, but there's something fundamental missing. something about our vibe together - like, the rhythm of the relationship. i feel like i'm being rushed. kinda. but it's not really "moving too fast" or anything. like, in terms of the progress of the relationship as compared to time, i think we're pacin' it pretty good. so the "rushed" part is something else, somewhere else. spending last night and today with her was really great, but i was kinda released from something internally constricting when she left today. it's not her though, it's me. i really should get that figured out by the next time i see her.
i got free tickets to a raptor game tomorrow.