Karma.
I had fully intended to post in between here and now, and even wrote an entry. Then it somehow disappeared.
I am really quite stressed right now - I have 40 meals left for 30 days of school, so I'm going to have to mooch off of my friends, which puts constraints on my schedule and my budget.
I have great amounts of work to redo until it's done correctly, and little time left to do it in. If I don't, I'll have a failing grade in my n-dimensional class. That would not be a good thing. The teacher is going easy on me too. Not that I'm the only person in the class this is happening to, but I have the least student skills of anyone there.
To top it off, I apparently misinterpreted something in my Economics class, so I didn't do as well as I would have liked on the quiz today. Luckily, my grade in that class is solid...
And in education, I had a test thursday and another test today, between the two classes. I think I did all right, got at least partial answers on everything and full answers on most - but... errgh.
I should have nothing below a B, with the implicit assumption that I can make up the work in n-dimensional successfully; but once again I'm worried about keeping my scholarship because I'm skating the edge of what's acceptable, and I didn't sign up for chamber singers formally so I'm not going to get that credit to float my GPA up. I've got to step up the work I'm doing YET AGAIN, and as busy as I've been I'm dreading the prospect. I'm definitely only running one more game of D&D this semester, just on account of me being very very busy and needing my saturday afternoons back. Which sucks, but ...
Not as much as the amount of work I'm going to have to throw in does. Plus, studying for finals week will also be difficult. I'm not formally taking as many credits as I have before, but I have 5 academic classes and the hurt is definitely being put on.
Plus it means not getting to spend as much time with the inestimable Rayna. Things are calm at least on that front. I'm growing a goatee ^^
My summer plans are starting to look like they'll be worse than last year. Not only will I probably be stuck at home again, I'll be competing for the car with Bridie, my girlfriend will be 4 or 5 hours away, and not only will I be working lifeguarding again but I'm not going to be able to teach camp anymore - they're letting Debbie do it.
Debbie is this major bitch and control freak who inexplicably is taking over the JCC, practically - I have parents who still rave about how well I taught their kids and how happy they were; Debbie may have a certificate but I bet I'm still a better teacher. I had those kids under control, playing nice, and - oh yeah - swimming better front crawl than I ever learned until maybe a year or two ago, I kid you not.
Certain of my friends are graduating, or will be graduating next year. When did I start becoming an old man on campus? Especially, it looks like I'm gonna be outlasting everyone in my math classes.
I think I've maybe lost some weight? That's a possible good thing. And I'm not ill. Just busy, and stressed.
Am I whining? I don't think so; I have legitimate plans to deal with most or all of this crap that's going on, and while technically at the moment I'm talking about it instead of doing something about it, that's because I'm typing in a livejournal. I'm just blowing off steam.
That and letting people know what's going on, assuming - y'know - that they're at all interested.
I could complain about a bunch more stuff, I'm on a roll...
You know what I could use? More books and videogames. And food. It seems that I have all this work, and all this nervous energy, and just not enough ways to blow off steam in a mind-numbing way.
That said, Rayna's gonna let me borrow her external hard drive, so I'll probably watch a bunch of the stuff she has there. Like the entire series of Gundam Wing.
I feel bad saying this, but I've come to realize the animation in that show isn't actually very good; or rather that I don't actually care for the art style in a lot of the screenshots I've seen. Moreso for the character art than the giant mechas; it just looks dated. Which I suppose is okay... but it was so much cooler-looking when I was a kid! Has it really been six years since I watched that regularly? At the bare minimum.
Some days I wish I had a TV, or at the least a larger monitor. The iBook is perfect for personal use but not so handy for entertaining.
I also wish I had bookshelves, so I could put my speakers on my desk instead of leaving them in the closet. The laptop speakers suck, and my headphones are antisocial.
Well, it's a beautiful day, so I'm gonna go walk.
Later, all.
I am really quite stressed right now - I have 40 meals left for 30 days of school, so I'm going to have to mooch off of my friends, which puts constraints on my schedule and my budget.
I have great amounts of work to redo until it's done correctly, and little time left to do it in. If I don't, I'll have a failing grade in my n-dimensional class. That would not be a good thing. The teacher is going easy on me too. Not that I'm the only person in the class this is happening to, but I have the least student skills of anyone there.
To top it off, I apparently misinterpreted something in my Economics class, so I didn't do as well as I would have liked on the quiz today. Luckily, my grade in that class is solid...
And in education, I had a test thursday and another test today, between the two classes. I think I did all right, got at least partial answers on everything and full answers on most - but... errgh.
I should have nothing below a B, with the implicit assumption that I can make up the work in n-dimensional successfully; but once again I'm worried about keeping my scholarship because I'm skating the edge of what's acceptable, and I didn't sign up for chamber singers formally so I'm not going to get that credit to float my GPA up. I've got to step up the work I'm doing YET AGAIN, and as busy as I've been I'm dreading the prospect. I'm definitely only running one more game of D&D this semester, just on account of me being very very busy and needing my saturday afternoons back. Which sucks, but ...
Not as much as the amount of work I'm going to have to throw in does. Plus, studying for finals week will also be difficult. I'm not formally taking as many credits as I have before, but I have 5 academic classes and the hurt is definitely being put on.
Plus it means not getting to spend as much time with the inestimable Rayna. Things are calm at least on that front. I'm growing a goatee ^^
My summer plans are starting to look like they'll be worse than last year. Not only will I probably be stuck at home again, I'll be competing for the car with Bridie, my girlfriend will be 4 or 5 hours away, and not only will I be working lifeguarding again but I'm not going to be able to teach camp anymore - they're letting Debbie do it.
Debbie is this major bitch and control freak who inexplicably is taking over the JCC, practically - I have parents who still rave about how well I taught their kids and how happy they were; Debbie may have a certificate but I bet I'm still a better teacher. I had those kids under control, playing nice, and - oh yeah - swimming better front crawl than I ever learned until maybe a year or two ago, I kid you not.
Certain of my friends are graduating, or will be graduating next year. When did I start becoming an old man on campus? Especially, it looks like I'm gonna be outlasting everyone in my math classes.
I think I've maybe lost some weight? That's a possible good thing. And I'm not ill. Just busy, and stressed.
Am I whining? I don't think so; I have legitimate plans to deal with most or all of this crap that's going on, and while technically at the moment I'm talking about it instead of doing something about it, that's because I'm typing in a livejournal. I'm just blowing off steam.
That and letting people know what's going on, assuming - y'know - that they're at all interested.
I could complain about a bunch more stuff, I'm on a roll...
You know what I could use? More books and videogames. And food. It seems that I have all this work, and all this nervous energy, and just not enough ways to blow off steam in a mind-numbing way.
That said, Rayna's gonna let me borrow her external hard drive, so I'll probably watch a bunch of the stuff she has there. Like the entire series of Gundam Wing.
I feel bad saying this, but I've come to realize the animation in that show isn't actually very good; or rather that I don't actually care for the art style in a lot of the screenshots I've seen. Moreso for the character art than the giant mechas; it just looks dated. Which I suppose is okay... but it was so much cooler-looking when I was a kid! Has it really been six years since I watched that regularly? At the bare minimum.
Some days I wish I had a TV, or at the least a larger monitor. The iBook is perfect for personal use but not so handy for entertaining.
I also wish I had bookshelves, so I could put my speakers on my desk instead of leaving them in the closet. The laptop speakers suck, and my headphones are antisocial.
Well, it's a beautiful day, so I'm gonna go walk.
Later, all.