It's coming..
There is an open mic I must read my work in. I'm not ready for it, nor have I had the opportunity to read my work out loud to others before. I'm so nervous, I'm not sure how the hell I'm going to do this and not fuck up. I mean I don't even know what i'm going to read. I dont know how many people will be there. I'm terrified to be honest. But in a way I want to do this, to get myself on a stage and to just do it, to say that I did. Man, in the conscious lyrics club, there are so many great writers, there work makes so much sense. But my work is like...I dont know, I feel like i'm going to be laughed at, or seen as a fake. Or, even as the killer. And damn. If my friends show up there, I'm really going to be nervous. I dont know what i'm going to do, I'm so terrified.
I've been looking over my work, and saw some pieces I'd like to read, but damn I don't know which one to pick, I don't even know if I have a ride home from the damn thing. I'm so freaked about this..but. I need to stop talking about it, and maybe write more about it and keep it out of the eyes of the people I interact with most. B/c I don't want them to miss interpret my nervousness. anxiety is a bitch though. I hope to re-read and go over my work so I can be confident enough to get this out to the masses.
Well, let me go back to reading my shit, more later.
I've been looking over my work, and saw some pieces I'd like to read, but damn I don't know which one to pick, I don't even know if I have a ride home from the damn thing. I'm so freaked about this..but. I need to stop talking about it, and maybe write more about it and keep it out of the eyes of the people I interact with most. B/c I don't want them to miss interpret my nervousness. anxiety is a bitch though. I hope to re-read and go over my work so I can be confident enough to get this out to the masses.
Well, let me go back to reading my shit, more later.