I know that nobody reads LJ.
I have never felt so lost and helpless while being in complete control and knowing exactly what is going on in my life..... Make Sense? Sure as hell doesn't to me!!!!
That is what i just posted as a status on facebook.... I really feel like my life is spiraling out of control while in reality everything is completely under control.
I have finally realized i have absolutely not one friend i still feel i can confide in without it becoming public knowledge. I have plenty of acquaintances but none i truly know and trust with the inner most details of my life and mind.
I have lost contact with the side of me who writes for fun, i have lost contact with the side of me who can just get it all out in writing and feel better after.... I have lost the part of me who keeps me from feeling worthless sometimes....
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A short update on everything.
I left Best Buy March 31, 2013 and took a management opportunity with Extended Stay Hotels (Extended Stay America) I was elated. I was finally given the break Best Buy would never give me... a MANAGER position. General Manager at that! It was a 12k pay raise annually over my Full Time position at Best Buy.
I found new challenges with ESA, and quickly learned how to effectively do my job, improved the overall look and feel of the hotel and raised our revenue/profit numbers, building relationships with external companies, and just overall making my hotel a much better place then it was prior to my Arrival.... I did have my troubles though, The hotel i was given was something of a "problem" hotel... with staff issues, long term guest issues, and challenges of the surrounding area. I found out most managers only last about a year at this hotel and then something happens to get them fired. I was sure that would not be me. Afterall i was cleaning the place up, we had just been approved for a Multi-Million dollar renovation, things were looking great.
Well. A year and a month later, I got fired! Reasoning was Bullshit, i was put on a 90 day improvement plan for a couple things 2 weeks before i was fired, and apparently in 2 weeks i did not move the needle enough, So i got let go. I could have had a huge HR case because i signed documentation showing i had 3 months to work on it. I know my District Manager was taking heat for things across his 6 hotels, and i am sure i took the fall for something he would have been in trouble for. So i chalk it up to i was the newest manager in his 6 hotels, and firing someone probably let him keep his position with our regional and corp. staff.... Extended Stay is definitely a HORRIBLE hotel chain, They pay their employees as close to Minimum wage as they can get away with (Our Housekeepers made $7.50/hr, at Hilton, etc most make upwards of 10-13/hr) But i am not going to rag on them...
I left Best Buy on good terms and after a couple weeks of unsuccessful job searching i reluctantly went back to the store i left.... PART TIME :(
I am stressed, I am Broke, My family is having health problems, I know exactly what is going on, but at the same time, I feel lost, hurt, and down.
Good thing nobody reads LJ anymore!
-MB
That is what i just posted as a status on facebook.... I really feel like my life is spiraling out of control while in reality everything is completely under control.
I have finally realized i have absolutely not one friend i still feel i can confide in without it becoming public knowledge. I have plenty of acquaintances but none i truly know and trust with the inner most details of my life and mind.
I have lost contact with the side of me who writes for fun, i have lost contact with the side of me who can just get it all out in writing and feel better after.... I have lost the part of me who keeps me from feeling worthless sometimes....
----
A short update on everything.
I left Best Buy March 31, 2013 and took a management opportunity with Extended Stay Hotels (Extended Stay America) I was elated. I was finally given the break Best Buy would never give me... a MANAGER position. General Manager at that! It was a 12k pay raise annually over my Full Time position at Best Buy.
I found new challenges with ESA, and quickly learned how to effectively do my job, improved the overall look and feel of the hotel and raised our revenue/profit numbers, building relationships with external companies, and just overall making my hotel a much better place then it was prior to my Arrival.... I did have my troubles though, The hotel i was given was something of a "problem" hotel... with staff issues, long term guest issues, and challenges of the surrounding area. I found out most managers only last about a year at this hotel and then something happens to get them fired. I was sure that would not be me. Afterall i was cleaning the place up, we had just been approved for a Multi-Million dollar renovation, things were looking great.
Well. A year and a month later, I got fired! Reasoning was Bullshit, i was put on a 90 day improvement plan for a couple things 2 weeks before i was fired, and apparently in 2 weeks i did not move the needle enough, So i got let go. I could have had a huge HR case because i signed documentation showing i had 3 months to work on it. I know my District Manager was taking heat for things across his 6 hotels, and i am sure i took the fall for something he would have been in trouble for. So i chalk it up to i was the newest manager in his 6 hotels, and firing someone probably let him keep his position with our regional and corp. staff.... Extended Stay is definitely a HORRIBLE hotel chain, They pay their employees as close to Minimum wage as they can get away with (Our Housekeepers made $7.50/hr, at Hilton, etc most make upwards of 10-13/hr) But i am not going to rag on them...
I left Best Buy on good terms and after a couple weeks of unsuccessful job searching i reluctantly went back to the store i left.... PART TIME :(
I am stressed, I am Broke, My family is having health problems, I know exactly what is going on, but at the same time, I feel lost, hurt, and down.
Good thing nobody reads LJ anymore!
-MB