No Sense In Reading This!
Why Am i updating? who knows nothing better to do maybe....i have no real idea or purpose for this update im just in the mood to type.
1. Thing with me and TJ..... Where the hell do i even start on this one.... its been an interesting last few weeks....the arguments have become more and more....but it seems each argument we have becomes easier to work thru...maybe were just so tired of arguing that we make things work....maybe we really are meant for one another and are just being tested....repeatedly.... The bottom line is even after we treat each other like total shit for a day or so, we can still fall asleep together and be happy....because i love Timothy James Horstmann, i love him with all my heart and soul, i dont want to ever not see him when i fall asleep, and when i wake in the morning....i dont want to not hear him complain that i make too much noise getting ready for work in the morning....i love everything about that boy....maybe thats why i can find it in my heart to be so forgiving....
2. We Got the condo back!..... For anyone who does not know.... Chris my old paramedic room-mate (EMTBoi378) is moving to Florida with his boyfriend Kevin, and moved out of the Troy condo which i had left because i couldnt stand living with him anymore, well point is chris moved out.... still having 1 year left on the 2 year lease..... so i came back, got a room-mate (Nate who is straight...with bi tendencies i guess) who is awesome and agreed to finish out the term of the lease. Of course TJ is living with me....we finally have a place to call our own, that tj can clean as he pleases.... :-) So anyone wanting to see my condo, or needing a couch to crash on just let me know
3. Speaking of couches to crash on.... Eric one of Tj's myspace friends who happened to be dating my ex devon.....went thru...well we'll just say he and his boyfriend broke up... Tj approached me asking if Eric could stay here for a while, me being the person i am said "absolutely....anyone can crash on a couch if they need to" i was hesitent since i really had no idea who this person was and didnt know if they'd like walk off with my plasma or laptop..... but none the less i agreed..... TJ called me the night eric was supposed to come over cuz he wasnt able to be at the condo...so i went home and awaited eric's arrival.... it was interesting.... he seemed so uncomfortable and nervous....guess its to be expected tho.... he had no real clue who i was besides 1 myspace message.... Were both glad hes here now tho, hes been great company so far and seems like it will only get better.
4. I have been thinking about old time lately a lot, i really dont know why, i know the past is in the past but...its ok to think about it every now and then, right? I keep thinking back to Senior Year.... my last groves performing arts company show..... seeing that curtain close knowing id never sit mid-house in that theatre as a groves student ever again.... thinking back to all the memories and emotional growth i went thru not in school but in that auditorium....its the only thing that kept me in school.....was looking forward to after school..... not only the school memories come back now tho but the memories of my friends of senior year and the summer after.... My friends going off to school while i stayed here and went to OCC....that wasnt even a big deal...it wasn't until the next summer when my class of 04 friends started going away....it was just hard seeing my closest group of friends drift away thru that next year.... Honestly what i wouldnt give to lay on kristen's couch again eating, mixing drinks (virgin of course...), and playing truth or dare jenga.... not a care in the world other then whatd we'd do the next day..... as i type this im singing the toys 'r us song in my head....im pathetic..... i love what i have in the present, as it will be sure to write a happy future for me.... but i still remember the small things from the past that still bring a tear to my eye, a smile to my face, and a warm fuzzy feeling to my stomach.....
TJ wants to go to bed...i think ill continue my rant another time.....
I'll leave you with this....
" A Person's Life is Made Up of Years that mean nothing and moments that mean everything" -Anon ...... Live for those moments.....when you find them never forget them
Ask Yourself
Is there one guy, just one guy
Who'd Lay down his life for you and die?
I heard him say it
It's Hard to say it
But it's probably Me.
-MEB
1. Thing with me and TJ..... Where the hell do i even start on this one.... its been an interesting last few weeks....the arguments have become more and more....but it seems each argument we have becomes easier to work thru...maybe were just so tired of arguing that we make things work....maybe we really are meant for one another and are just being tested....repeatedly.... The bottom line is even after we treat each other like total shit for a day or so, we can still fall asleep together and be happy....because i love Timothy James Horstmann, i love him with all my heart and soul, i dont want to ever not see him when i fall asleep, and when i wake in the morning....i dont want to not hear him complain that i make too much noise getting ready for work in the morning....i love everything about that boy....maybe thats why i can find it in my heart to be so forgiving....
2. We Got the condo back!..... For anyone who does not know.... Chris my old paramedic room-mate (EMTBoi378) is moving to Florida with his boyfriend Kevin, and moved out of the Troy condo which i had left because i couldnt stand living with him anymore, well point is chris moved out.... still having 1 year left on the 2 year lease..... so i came back, got a room-mate (Nate who is straight...with bi tendencies i guess) who is awesome and agreed to finish out the term of the lease. Of course TJ is living with me....we finally have a place to call our own, that tj can clean as he pleases.... :-) So anyone wanting to see my condo, or needing a couch to crash on just let me know
3. Speaking of couches to crash on.... Eric one of Tj's myspace friends who happened to be dating my ex devon.....went thru...well we'll just say he and his boyfriend broke up... Tj approached me asking if Eric could stay here for a while, me being the person i am said "absolutely....anyone can crash on a couch if they need to" i was hesitent since i really had no idea who this person was and didnt know if they'd like walk off with my plasma or laptop..... but none the less i agreed..... TJ called me the night eric was supposed to come over cuz he wasnt able to be at the condo...so i went home and awaited eric's arrival.... it was interesting.... he seemed so uncomfortable and nervous....guess its to be expected tho.... he had no real clue who i was besides 1 myspace message.... Were both glad hes here now tho, hes been great company so far and seems like it will only get better.
4. I have been thinking about old time lately a lot, i really dont know why, i know the past is in the past but...its ok to think about it every now and then, right? I keep thinking back to Senior Year.... my last groves performing arts company show..... seeing that curtain close knowing id never sit mid-house in that theatre as a groves student ever again.... thinking back to all the memories and emotional growth i went thru not in school but in that auditorium....its the only thing that kept me in school.....was looking forward to after school..... not only the school memories come back now tho but the memories of my friends of senior year and the summer after.... My friends going off to school while i stayed here and went to OCC....that wasnt even a big deal...it wasn't until the next summer when my class of 04 friends started going away....it was just hard seeing my closest group of friends drift away thru that next year.... Honestly what i wouldnt give to lay on kristen's couch again eating, mixing drinks (virgin of course...), and playing truth or dare jenga.... not a care in the world other then whatd we'd do the next day..... as i type this im singing the toys 'r us song in my head....im pathetic..... i love what i have in the present, as it will be sure to write a happy future for me.... but i still remember the small things from the past that still bring a tear to my eye, a smile to my face, and a warm fuzzy feeling to my stomach.....
TJ wants to go to bed...i think ill continue my rant another time.....
I'll leave you with this....
" A Person's Life is Made Up of Years that mean nothing and moments that mean everything" -Anon ...... Live for those moments.....when you find them never forget them
Ask Yourself
Is there one guy, just one guy
Who'd Lay down his life for you and die?
I heard him say it
It's Hard to say it
But it's probably Me.
-MEB