"Is there anything that I can do?, that someone didnt do for you?"
So we are finally getting the jukebox at our house mayeb tomorrow! That i going to be the raddest addition to our house by far. We are even planning on having a little get together in celebration of the item where people can bring any seven inches that they have and we will dance it up! Im so glad because I have like three seven inches that I have never even listened to before and tow of them are Elliott Smith ones! Krissy had the same plan as I did about make shifting some curtains to put over our huge front windows so no one can see in and see a "party" or as I am going to call it "box social", which can not be confused with party, because it is simple a small gathering of friends:)
I really let my last post become reflective, or rather, predictive of my time last night. I got stupid girlly mad at Ben for wanting to leave and go to some other party and to go play video games an smoke with the boys. Erin made me feel better for making fun of the boys for wanting o do that. I knew it wasnt just me who though that was lame. Andrew really helped me out, as usual, with figuring stuff out and even told Ben how I was feeling. He seriously is my therapist and I should be paying him! Everything worked out in the end. When Ben left, I had alot of fun getting to put my attention on my friends and I did't care what he was doing. When he returned to the party we left right away and went to the playground to swing, It was fun for like five minutes, then it was freezing lol. I hope he comes back tonight from Toledo. Im such a stupid girl.
I saw I Heart Huckabee's last night and it was pretty good. Very exstistential, and Im glad I took a theory class because it really helped me grasp some of the concepts. They best part is when Mark Wahlberg and Jason Schwartzmans chracters go to the home of this Christian family and they argue philiosphy pver religion, oh my GOD. Hillarious. And I really agreed witha lot of what it was saying ,especially the theory about realizing your own mortality and clearing your mind through pain. When you are hurting, you pretty much can onlu think about the pain, and that is really the only time your mind is pretty much clear of confusuion. Seeing the two different philosophies react to each other was priceless. You really just have to see it. Garden State was better though ,(I thought I would throw that in there).
Tonight- I want to feel good, excited,, I want to dance? Laugh, stare, smile, play, conversate, sing, who knows? I better not think of anything or have an expectations though because that gets me into trouble. Luckily I have no plans, just ideas. I explained to Ben that this is why I want to make films, so I can make all my expectations an artifical reality. I can control what happends and make it looke exactly how I pictured, even if it isnt really happening, which it never does. Does that make any sense? It does to me. "How am I not myself"- think about that one.------Francois Truffaut
I really let my last post become reflective, or rather, predictive of my time last night. I got stupid girlly mad at Ben for wanting to leave and go to some other party and to go play video games an smoke with the boys. Erin made me feel better for making fun of the boys for wanting o do that. I knew it wasnt just me who though that was lame. Andrew really helped me out, as usual, with figuring stuff out and even told Ben how I was feeling. He seriously is my therapist and I should be paying him! Everything worked out in the end. When Ben left, I had alot of fun getting to put my attention on my friends and I did't care what he was doing. When he returned to the party we left right away and went to the playground to swing, It was fun for like five minutes, then it was freezing lol. I hope he comes back tonight from Toledo. Im such a stupid girl.
I saw I Heart Huckabee's last night and it was pretty good. Very exstistential, and Im glad I took a theory class because it really helped me grasp some of the concepts. They best part is when Mark Wahlberg and Jason Schwartzmans chracters go to the home of this Christian family and they argue philiosphy pver religion, oh my GOD. Hillarious. And I really agreed witha lot of what it was saying ,especially the theory about realizing your own mortality and clearing your mind through pain. When you are hurting, you pretty much can onlu think about the pain, and that is really the only time your mind is pretty much clear of confusuion. Seeing the two different philosophies react to each other was priceless. You really just have to see it. Garden State was better though ,(I thought I would throw that in there).
Tonight- I want to feel good, excited,, I want to dance? Laugh, stare, smile, play, conversate, sing, who knows? I better not think of anything or have an expectations though because that gets me into trouble. Luckily I have no plans, just ideas. I explained to Ben that this is why I want to make films, so I can make all my expectations an artifical reality. I can control what happends and make it looke exactly how I pictured, even if it isnt really happening, which it never does. Does that make any sense? It does to me. "How am I not myself"- think about that one.------Francois Truffaut