omg
K SO i had the most fucking phenominal night of all time and forever. first me kari stacy andrew jake kathrine and george went to lakeshore lanes and bowled and i got challanged to a sprint race by some kid from e.d. so i raced him and smoked him. iam a lot faster then last year iam so hyped about it. i ran an 11.5 hundred. hells yah then we went and ate at big boy. becky met up with us and we chilled there for a while. then this group of chicks from southlake came in. they started talking to us...well me george and andrew. just talking to other girls makes me miss whitney so incredibly bad and i want this break and everything thats happend to be a horrible fucking dream. i cant wait till iam back in her arms. and as for our other worry iam sure that the lord will answer my prayer and prove my fear groundless. but its just...i love her so much and when those southlake girls were talking to us i talked to them but i knew most of them wanted like a one night hookup and whatnot that and the fact that none of them are her...nothing like her...i love everything about her...but somtimes i feel like things ive done have pushed her away and that there are somethings that she dosent say to me but has thought of. i just hope that this time apart gives me the time i need to work out my self issues which ive been working on for a few weeks now even before all this happend. but i feel like i really should thank steve cause without his help i dont think id be anybetter off cause id still be an emotional trainwreck. i owe him a great deal. i think tommorrow is gonna be a day of meditation that it. pure inner reflection and search for peace. now iam gonna hope that things take a turn for the better for me and her and for us and i think iam gonna get some sleep. goodnight everyone
still in love...
still in love...